Taking my own advise
Monday, August 10, 2009
Some time ago, I told a new member to one of my teams, as I have told others, "Control your disease, don't let it control you!" Good advise. I've followed it for years and it has helped me through some pretty tough times. So, what happened??!!
This last surgery I went through seemed simple enough (May 22 this year) two different ones on the same hand at the same time. but boy was I surprised! I have never experienced so much pain! And it pretty much incapacitated me. I just couldn't do anything, There weren't enough pain pills to relieve the pain.
Needless to say, I quit exercising, stopped watching a lot of what I was eating, became a real jerk according to my wife. I was not a pleasant person to be around. Finally after two months of dealing with this. One day the pain just stopped! Now i am going through Physical therapy to get the use of my hand back. which, by the way is not going as well as they had hoped. But I knew there was a possibility of it not getting back to normal.
Anyway,the pain has stopped, then a few days later, I start getting this pain in my jaw and it is casing these tremendous headaches. And I'm thinking, IS THIS EVER GOING TO END??
Well, it did, for the most part. I'm back down to tolerable pain, which I can deal with.
my whole point here is. I was sitting here this morning, thinking about the 10 lbs I have put on over the past two months. About the new Med's that say weight gain is a side effect. Basically grumbling and feeling sorry for myself. Then it dawned on me. I let it beat me! I let this stupid disease get the better of me. Well I'm here to tell you, that is done with. I'm through letting this thing control me and I'm taking back control. So to all those I have ignored, not replied to and not participated, I apologize. It's time to get back on track. I also want to thank all those that sent goodies, left comments, and sent spark mail. They really meant a lot.
I hope my new attitude is contagious and it infects everyone who reads this.