Dear Mojo, I hope you are enjoying your holiday, but please come back soon!
Sunday, August 09, 2009
So it looks like the holiday has taken a delayed toll on my healthy habits. I guess the combination of being away from SP for 2 weeks (despite religiously logging it all in my little notebook), the slight worry of being over my daily calories, the laziness in pushing myself to exercise EVERY DAY (by pleading I was being way more active than usual and walking lots) and more importantly having to justify myself and my new lifestyle to several people has finally broken the camel's back: this week, I just can not get back on track.
It all started with the body ache from a fully packed suitcase and the accompanying cabin bag (which I could barely lift), then developped into a never-satisfied hunger and laziness with typing it all in. I had every plan to put the 2 weeks of food in, but that has yet to happen...I guess I am scared of what I may find out...
The exercise, I am slowly getting back into but it has been hard, and I skipped the abs on all but 2 days, after doing NONE whilst on holiday. So I guess I'll be back on week 1 of C25K (unless it rains of course ;-) )
I suppose it is good that I can see all that and that I want to kick myself in the backside to get back on the horse because I know both how good it feels AND how I will not get to goal if I eat over and exercise under.
I have no-one to blame but myself, yet I can't help but think about the people I faced in the past 2 weeks and their attitude to healthy eating:
-my fellow SP friend who can and whom I wish I could make see how much I believe she can (even if it is hard at times)... (honey, you CAN do it!!!!and at least you ARE trying, so I'll let you off xx)
- the one who does not believe that I need to lose a little over 6 stones (trust me, I wish I did not, but I do...and my BMI agrees fully)
- the one who believes her hubby feeds her tasty food (he does), has been bloated for years but sees no benefit in monitoring her food intake, relying instead on exercise to keep her trim physique (after a few days of eating poorly I was struggling too...honey you don't eat enough fibre ...trust me, I KNOW how hard it is to get 25g per day!)
- the 2 who swear they tried 'everything' to lose weight, which yielded one who has given up and one who eats milkshakes twice a day 'because it's the only way' (Miss number 1, your portions are way out of order, and vegetables would be welcome...Miss number 2, it is not sustainable, and I REALLY thought you were too bright to fall for that trap)
Because of all of that, I am ashamed to admit, I am angry...because I failed to change their view, and I love them all I want them to be healthy and understand that food does not have to rule your life (even if from time to time it still rules mine too...hey, it has ONLY been 2 months!).
So this week I feel lethargic (turns out my iron intake is stupidly low), and bloated, and full of water, and hungry, and tired, and really irritable...and it makes me wonder: how on Earth did I live that life for 9 years without realising the negative effects ?
So I wonder if other people have encountered some people they want to grab by the shoulders and shake them until they see the (SP) light? Or am I the only (slightly smug) one who feels the urge to convert each and everyone?