I know how I got here.

Saturday, August 08, 2009

I know how I got here. "Here" is 100 pounds overweight, tired, knees hurt, depressed, self esteem in the toilet. I got here by putting myself last, by making excuses, by living in a place called denial. Following is a partial list of excuses/lies I have told myself over the years,
I don't have time
I don't have enough energy
This/that is more important right now
I don't want to date again, I dated enough when I was younger
I don't deserve to have all in my life that I want.
I don't have enough money to join gym, buy equipment, buy exercise clothes
I am too fat to go to the gym
Everyone will look at me/judge me because of my weight
First I will lose 20 lbs., then go to an exercise class
My kids wont eat the diet food
I don't deserve this-yes, I said it twice.
Just a partial list. When your 100 pounds overweight, the one thing you are good at, besides eating, is making excuses.
What is different this time? Why do I think I can be successful this time? Because, today, I do feel like I deserve this. My kids deserve a mom that will be around for them, that has the energy to play with them, that won't embarrass them. I deserve to be healthy, to be happy, to be strong and feel good. Today, I know I can do this. Tomorrow, we will see. But I feel pretty good about tomorrow, today.
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  • ASMPP1
    4291 days ago
    Way to go! And WELCOME to SPARKPEOPLE! Not to sound corny..but your list looks just like my list! And to boot...I am, STILL, 70 pounds overweight. But I have to say, this website has really kept me going. Keeping the articles in mind, posting my fitness minutes, blogging and tracking have helped me a lot.
    Good luck on your journey! You are on the right path for the right reasons, and YOU DO deserve to be happy, healthy, strong and to feel good!!!!!!!!!
    4291 days ago
  • SUNNY1432
    You sound like a wonderfully positive person and I know you can do it. Just remember when you start feeling down to blog it. There are wonderful people on this site that will help you get through even your worse day. Take care and keep Sparking:) emoticon
    4291 days ago
  • WEEZIE1122
    That's how alot of us got here. Welcome to our club. It's called Spark People. We are glad to have you.

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    4291 days ago
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