Thursday, August 06, 2009
I have always known that i was an emotional eater, but it never really meant anything to me. Ok, so I eat when I get depressed - big deal. I have learned over the last few years that emotional eating is not very common among people I know - almost everyone I know tells me that they have a hard time eating when they are stressed. Gee, if only I had THAT problem.
Over the last few weeks I have noticed that I am not just a minor emotional eater, I have a SERIOUS problem! I eat when I am stressed, I eat when I am scared, I eat when I am worried, I eat, I eat, I eat! I realized this as I was standing in the Kitchen eating leftover chocolate chunks after Mike & I had a fight. I put the lid back on & put them away. I was horribly embarrassed. I realized another thing at that moment. If I am embarrassed about eating, then maybe I shouldn't be doing it! My sister told me years ago about a friend of hers that was able to quit smoking and lost weight because she realized that she had been hiding it from people, and if she had to hide it then it probably wasnt something she should be doing. There was more to the story, but that is the gist of it. I totally agree! If I have to hide it, then why am I doing it?
Something else I have noticed - it's hard to get support from people about emotional eating. Like I said, most of my friends have the opposite problem, so they don't understand how hard it is for me to NOT eat when I am having a bad day. Mike tries to understand, and supports me by getting me whatever food I want, but that is the wrong kind of support. Nice try though. I am glad I have found a group of people like me on SparkPeople facing the same stuggles. It makes me feel less alone in this.