MY JOURNEY - AUGUST 5, 2009

Well I got caught up with face book and American Idol and gained a few pounds but I knew it was ok and maintained those few pounds. I just flipped o ut when I got on the scale and realized I had gained another 2 pounds, which shouldn't surprise me with the amount of junk food I have been consuming. I swore to myself I would never go down this road again and thankfully I caught myself in time. I don't know how or why but I am always hungry and how easily I forgot how hard I worked for a year to reach my goal weight. There's no excuse and I am hoping that once I start eating less and being more aware my appetite will shrink again and I will think twice before I put anything in my mouth. For a whole year I had no junk food snacks, candy, ice cream, etc. Slowly but surely I decided I would treat myself every Sunday. Then it turned into Monday, Tuesday, etc.
G-D give me the will power to do this right now before it gets out of control. There are personal things eating me up inside with my family and their behavior but that's a lame excuse and a cop out. I know better.
Now today is probably too late, but starting tomorrow I will try to promise myself that I don't want to go down this road again, it took too long and too much hard work to get where I was.
That's it for now. I should go walking but the heat is oppressive.