Falling off the wagon...

but hanging on to the edge for dear life.

That's been me for the last two weeks. It doesn't help that there's no fruits/veggies in the house, and my car is broken so I can't go to the market down the way (I mean, I could, but I'd have far too many things to walk back the .5 mile with)... but I'm trying to be more aware.

I'm trying to go to the gym every day. I missed Wednesday, and I can't go today because of my car's issues... all I need is some transmission fluid and it should be ok, but the car shop AND the repair shop on the corner don't have any. I was like WTF?! So I'm going to wait for my mom to get home so I can hopefully borrow her car to get some fluid and go to the market.

I can't seem to give up eating my favorite things. Ever since I came home, I have been eating more chocolate/Little Debbie/pudding/etc. than I have in the last three months. It's so frustrating! I don't know if I'm eating it because it's there, because I want it, because I'm hungry... I just don't know. But it tastes good.

I have a quote, though... a quote that I tell myself every time I feel like giving up or feel like it's ok to be doing these things... a quote I use to figure out when I want something because I truly want it or because it's convenient...

"A man who wants something will find a way; a man who doesn't will find an excuse." by Stephan Dolley Jr.

This is my mantra. These are the words I live by.

No excuses!!

EDIT: Mom's letting me take dad's car to get the groceries and transmission fluid. Yay!