Navel Gazing and Procrastination

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

It may be ironic that I'm navel gazing about navel gazing and procrastination when there are things on my to do list for the day that I haven't done, but I think I need to write about this anyway. I've always been a thinker...more than a doer. Hence my couch potato life BSP ("Before Spark People"). I analyzed relationships to death when I was single, I excelled as a student and loved research and writing papers. (I still love researching and writing, I just don't have a job that involves much of that.) I'm more theoretical than practical. Combined with perfectionism and taking things slowly, cautiously and deliberately, I've never been one to "set the world on fire," and when I DID get going on something, I wasn't able to sustain the momentum for very long.

Once I get a vision, that seems to help. We remodeled the basement 4 years ago, and I DID go like gangbusters with that. I spent much of the summer staining woodwork, painting walls, finding door/cabinet hardware, etc. One difference between my living/dining room project and the basement is that I had a vision. I had a wall hanging that helped me with the color scheme, I knew I wanted to incorporate copper accents, and we made the wood trim and door knobs similar to what was in the other part of the house.

Remodeling the living/dining rooms is different. Even though I have a vision to paint the walls similarly to the original 1926 multi-colored glazed and textured finish, I have no idea how to do it. My painting experiment failed miserably a couple of weeks ago, and that took the wind out of my sails considerably. Now I'm stuck again. I tried finding a picture to help me choose the colors, but in the end my DH and I decided neither of the pictures were really "it." So back to square one. I think my perfectionism is kicking in here, too. This seems like such a huge commitment to me. If I were just painting the walls one color, that wouldn't be such an issue. But if I can even figure out how to do something similar to the original, it will be such an intricate process, that it will be a major time and energy investment, so I want to make sure it will be just right.

OK, so what about just taking care of the house day-to-day? Why am I such a slug about picking up, decluttering and cleaning? Why do I ignore my Flylady routines after going to all the trouble to make a routine list in my Control Journal? Why was I such a slug about exercising and why didn't I care about what I was eating? I think it stems from some of the same problems. Both problems take practical steps and action, not just theoretical navel-gazing. Sitting and thinking is easy. It's the getting up and doing something with the thoughts, especially consistently and persistently that is hard...and not fun.

I am able to be consistent and persistent with exercising because I found fun ways to do classes. I'm even able to be consistent with the strength training because I break it up into tolerable chunks. Tracking food and exercising during the losing weight phase, while tedious, was easier when I was doing it everyday than it has been in maintenance, because I knew it would result in noticable, measurable progress. So, how do I make sparking my house measurable and fun? The SP process involves goals and rewards. I really need to be able to measure progess in order to know when I've earned the rewards.

OK, enough navel gazing for today. Tomorrow I'm going to complete 4 of the steps I wrote down in my Control Journal. I will:
1. Revise my Control Journal.
2. Swish & Swipe the bathrooms
3. REALLY clean the kitchen sink
4. Declutter for 15 minutes, 4 times throughout the day.

I will record this on my "other goals."
I will start a reward jar. I'll put my daily points' worth of pennies/cents in a jar, saving up for a reward (details to be determined).
I'll use HouseFairy ideas to make things fun.
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    This sounds so much like me, I could have written this blog! Sometimes, (well, most times actually) I am so sluggish during the day. It takes a lot to get a little done. I'll try Flylady!
    4236 days ago
  • LINDA!
    I think you have a good plan. I am not an organized person. I have learned to do the routines the same way I do segments. I actually do a lot on some days....very little on other days. It all gets done now. But I have to do it in this way rather than as a powerhouse cleaner, I am a sprinter.
    4236 days ago
    I wish I had a good answer for you. I struggle with my routines, too. I think the jar idea that was posted on FlyLady Sparkers is a good one.
    4236 days ago
    Sometimes us thinkers need to step back from a project...put it aside... to get the vision and determination that we need to finish the project... and i have no doubts that you will get that vision and go for it full force... you are doing great...keep up the good work. I know i also need to reorganize my control journal...hopefully soon :)
    4237 days ago
    I really enjoyed the last part of your blog best. I need motivation to keep to my goals. emoticon
    4237 days ago
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