Fighting Lions From My Past

Monday, July 20, 2009

For those who don't know me, I am afflicted with both Major and Chronic Depression. The meds my Psychiatrist have prescribed for me are working, but what I really need is to pull this thing out with my therapist.

I haven't been able to do this because it is something in my past that I WISH I had done, but didn't have the social skills to deal with it.

Since I am pretty sure about what I'm facing, I should be able to take this out and intellectually bring it out and dissect it. I know that I can't go back and change what I did nor can I go back and bring it back up again - there are too many people that would be hurt, including me.

See, even blogging about this I can't get specific. I am afraid to confront this thing directly.

Even though I am the Co-Founder of the Dealing with Depression team and I can give other people advice and point out alternatives for them, I'm unable to do it for myself. Looking at ourselves truthfully and honestly is one of the most difficult things we can do.
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    You're right, it is difficult and it takes time. The way I've heard it is...it took years for me to get as sick as I got, so it will take some time for me to get better. One slogan that helps me is "easy does it".
    Just keep taking care of yourself.
    A wise lady said this to me...take care of yourself Darlene, if you don't who will? It really helps when I do take care of myself..even when I don't want to!!
    4112 days ago
    could you use 'another' quote ?

    "What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us." Oliver Wendell Holmes
    4200 days ago
    Dear Popeye .. I disagree with you here, it is not one of the hardest things we have to learn to do .. it is the Hardest thing to learn growing up ~ no matter ones age. Sometimes it comes down to not a 'day at a time' but '5min at a time'. Once I had an art teacher tell me to 'get out of myself' .. watch 'Sunday Morning News' (for example) .. actually it helped me. Hope you get a helpful insight (as I did) that comes up, bops you on the nose and corrects your perspective !! Good Luck old Friend. Namaste. L
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    4200 days ago
  • LINDA!
    I had an issue in my life that I NEVER told anyone about. I was very afraid to even speak of it. When I finally got the nerve up to speak to my therapist about it, over a year ago, she seemed so comfortable with it that I almost felt dumb for being afraid to mention it to her earlier. Every time I tried my palms were clammy, I broke out into a sweat. It is surprising to me however, that I feel pretty safe now telling her so many things that I won't mention to anyone else. Best of luck to you. I hope you find a way to work this out. I really believe you will feel better when you are able to do it. But, of course, do this in your own time and when YOU ARE READY!
    4200 days ago
    For what it is worth why don't you set up a blogger or wordpress blog that is anonymous. Don't put your name on it. Don't tell anyone about it. Use it as a spot to say and disect everything you want in safety. I did that and it has helped. I have gotten my thoughts out in the open but yet felt safe to say what I wanted.

    Good luck.
    4200 days ago
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