I drove 30 minutes for a scone...
Monday, July 20, 2009
Well, last week was a bit of a bust. I took my two little ones to visit my mom while my dad was in Colorado, climbing mountains. While she is a very healthy eater (and excellent cook!), I didn't get much activity in. And worse, I finished off the week - - at home - - with some bad eating.
Thank goodness for spark! If I were still doing things the "old" way, these little slips off the wagon would certainly have amounted to larger setbacks. The resources here, especially the mantra "two steps forward, one step back," are keeping me focused, even when I do stray off course for a few days.
I can credit my old friend, emotional eating, with most of my indulgences late last week. I'd had the kiddos (with my mom's help) for many days straight, a lot of driving in the car, and very little time to myself. I arrived home feeling pretty shot, and didn't get the immediate relief I'd expected from my husband. (Not his fault - - work got crazy.)
My deepest-seated urge to eat badly comes from feeling overwhelmed and overworked. It's nice to know this and understand it, but it really does me very little good "in the moment." I guess that's one of those things I need to continue to work on. It is challenging, with little kids (a baby!) whose needs MUST come first, and who rely on you for darn near everything.
During a normal week when I'm at home, and in my groove, and using daycare part of the week (so I can freelance), I feel like I can handle it. But pull me out of my comfort zone and put me one-on-one with my own kids for a week straight, and I'm digging through the freezer for the bucket of ice cream. Or driving to the NEXT TOWN for the scones I really like... three days in a row. Shameful, yes. But I kid you not, if felt NECESSARY to my SURVIVAL. (Giggle!)
Anyway. Hats off to all full time stay-at-home moms/dads, especially my sister, who does an amazing job with my 2-year-old niece. (And still manages to keep a gorgeous home and stay in phenomenal shape!) And to everyone whose kids have grown up and left the house - - for all the years of childrearing you did! I am going to try to stay in the little comfort zone I've carved out of my life for the next few weeks and get back to my sparky self. Only a little bit of July left and I have important goals to meet!