Where Art Thou?
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
I'm right here.
I got somewhat sidetracked over the last month. I've notice quite a few of my spark buddies are busy and are floating in and out of spark. It's the summertime...everyone is caught up with vacations, children, work and the summer buzz. For me life just happened and I got wrapped up and distracted. My eye was no longer on the prize (so to speak). But I got a nice little jolt back into reality this weekend.
I flew up north to see my boyfriends family. My before pictures were taken there. It was there, back in December, that I realized I was out of control and so was my weight. I've lost 45 lbs since being there at Christmas. I waited to see if anyone would say anything...no one really even noticed I lost any weight. So, I said something....they only thing that was said-"yeah, I noticed a difference when you ordered your food." (Note to self-"food police" present) They did not notice I lost weight-I will always be fat in their eyes. My boyfriends family is very prejudice when it comes to weight. I was excited to show off my hard work and all I got was your face looks thinner...come on people, I did not lose 45 lbs from my face. I was not happy. I did not like the way they made me feel. Then it happened again...you know the family photo of you taken next to the 100 lb person. All I could say was....whoa! The reality is I am still large (300 lbs). I could sit around and wallow in self pity. But I refuse.
I became very lax with my eating and exercise over the last month. The trip up north, to see this weight obsessed family, actually wasn't a bad thing. I am back on track. I am back on my journey...so glad you are all still here to walk beside me.
Me and my fella, this weekend, sipping a bowl of a drink!