Afraid to buy new clothes

Monday, July 13, 2009

I have been struggling with this for awhile now, and I am hoping this blog will just help me come to terms with it and move on.

I am afraid to buy new clothes. I don't even want to go to the store and try them on. I've lost almost 60 pounds, and I'm running out of things I can wear, and the things I am still wearing are just hanging on me. At first I thought it was just about the money, but I am beginning to realize that was just an excuse. What's really bothering me is fear--I'm afraid that when I start trying things on and have to look at myself in the mirror, I still won't like what I see, that things still won't fit me any better or any more flattering than they did when I was at my heaviest, which will make me come face to face with that old fat girl inside again - a huge reminder of how much work I still have to do to get to my goal--almost like starting over. In a weird way, it's comforting wearing these big, baggy clothes--they are the tangible evidence that I carry around with me every day, reminding me of how far I've come. I find myself wanting to get rid of things that no longer fit, but at the same time, not really wanting to part with them.

I've lost weight before, but I can't remember ever feeling this way before. Has anyone else experienced this, and if so, what did you do?
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    I understand your feelings, I, too, have had those same thoughts. But I bet your first smaller outfit will give you more confidence and help you renew your efforts to stay in control and achieve all of your goals. Good for you! emoticon You have come so far and need to celebrate yourself.
    3603 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/14/2009 9:11:40 PM
    Don't be afraid. Embrace the new you. If nothing else, go out get yourself one new pair of jeans and a nice shirt. Once you put them on you will see just how good it feels to have clothes that fit.

    I have also lost over 60 pounds and still have many more to go. I went out last week and bought a couple of new outfits for work. I have gotten nothing but compliments since. People will notice your progress even more.

    You should be proud of your accomplishment.
    3603 days ago
    I can relate to this.....

    The pants that I wear I can take them on and off with out unbuttoning or unzipping them. But yet, I won't go and buy new ones. Mainly because I want to save money and wait a little longer (because I have so much more to lose) but I still hate seeing clothes not fit me.

    But 60 pounds is a huge accomplishment and something that you should be very proud of. You may even be surprised at the size you will have to get in the store.
    3603 days ago
  • REEN325
    I can so relate to this.
    I actually bought my first 2 tops in the Regular section (not Plus size).
    I felt like I didn't belong there. I have shopped the Plus Size department for the last 20 years. It felt kind of creepy.
    I can't come to getting rid of my larger sizes, because I continue to have thoughts that I will gain the weight back again.
    I tell you, when you wear that new item of clothing in the smaller size, people notice. I got 3 compliments last week when I wore the new clothes, I have been banded for over a year.
    So, go for it - Treat the shopping spree as a reward for your commitment and hard work. You deserve it.
    3604 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/14/2009 7:52:45 AM
    Just keep some of them like souvenirs. This is what I did when I lost 60 pounds some years ago. It worked for me. emoticon
    3604 days ago
  • SUZANNE3018
    I've experienced that before. My "fat clothes" as I would call them were like my security blanket. I could hide behind them and that was the way I felt most comfortable. But now, since starting my current job 5 years ago, and making some new and wonderful and encouraging friends, I say, "If ya got it, flaunt it!" Of course, going from one extreme to the other was just not me, so my "flaunting it" is still pretty conservative ;) I still even have a few baggy clothes around for those days when I need the comfort.

    So, girlfriend, throw off those baggy clothes and strut your stuff! You have done magnificently well, and all your hard work will show.
    3604 days ago
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