Why?Whay am I sabatoging myself?
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Why is it that at three weeks out I'm still trying to sabotage myself?DH is in on helping to undo all my hard work but that is another post in and of itself.I'm at they gym six days a week.I'm trying to watch what I eat.And three weeks later I'm frustrated that I'm not losing lbs.Inches yes,pounds no.To top it all off last night I caught myself at the end of a binge.Darn Vienna sausages.I love them but they don't love me.I get a tummy ache every time and promise not to touch them again.A whole can gone and a serving is 3links= 200 cals make it the whole can of 7 little links and you got TROUBLE.BLECH! oh and the three tortillas I ate then wrapped in.I would have been better off eating at Taco Bell.At least there my 700+ calorie binge would have tasted better.Nothing like one grilled stuffed burrito to fill you up and have fewer consequences.Oh well dust off and begin again.
Now if I could just answer the WHY it happened question I would be even happier.I wasn't bored.It had been a stressful day.I forgot to decompress the right way.Food is not my friend,It doesn't love me,it can't hold my hand,give me a hug,tell me a joke,nothing.Today,I resolve that I will not beat myself up.I have so much going on.Stress happens.I just have to figure out how to deal with it better.