Sunday, July 05, 2009

With my papaw in the hospital sick, I have realized a few things. For one, I realize that he's not going to live forever. He may live to be as old as his father, which was 100 years old, but then again...he may not. I have also realized how mortal we are. We are not like vampires and other immortals. It all just makes me terribly sad. I'm feeling morbid.

I have also realized that I need to stop being so obsessed about my weight and losing 15 pounds....b/c I think I'm watching my life pass by me without really living it. It seems as if I focus too much on losing weight and I lose sight of everything and everyone else around me at times. I think I'm simply obsessed with it sometimes.

Anyway, this is just a lot of ramblings I know, but I just wanted to get it out. Thanks divas....for always being here!!!
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    I hope your papaw feels better soon.. and that you will too! I know what you mean by being too focused on weight loss... I was a little OCD (obsessive compulsive) at first... ok, not a little... A LOT actually. So much so that my boyfriend got a little worried and reminded me never to lose my joy for food.

    Everything in moderation, right?
    4297 days ago
    Thanks guys are simply the greatest! emoticon
    4300 days ago
    Dev, I think I just saw your light bulb turn on. If we focus too much on one thing we tend to lose ourselves in our lives. Good for you on seeing that and just take it one day at a time and it will happen.
    4300 days ago
    You and your family are in my prayers, hang in there.
    4300 days ago
    First off I want to say that I am sorry to hear of your Grandfather being the hospital sick... I know it can be so hard so watch our loved ones grow old and it definitely does remind us of our mortality. And as a nurse AND a beloved, daughter, granddaughter, mother, sister, friend, etc, I know all-too-well what you speak of. My heart goes out to you.

    The second thing I wanted to say was that I am SOOO relieved to know that it is not just me with over a hundred pounds to lose, but even someone who is already so little and with little to lose obsessing over weight and the perpetual " when I lose this weight I'LL _____!!!!" What a reminder for me that it's simply a trap and that anyone-- ANYONE can fall prey to this thinking!! Thank you for reminding me of this! See, your ranting helps people!!

    I hope for beautiful blessings this week for you! :)
    4300 days ago
    Hang in there Dev. I know times are tough right now with your papaw. I wish you and he both the strength to get through this. I know whatcha mean about the obsession with the weight. Hang in there girl, this too shall pass.
    4300 days ago
    It sounds like you have a lot going on. Instead of feeling morbid about the cycle of life. Think about the wonderful things that have happened to you and the promising future you have.
    4300 days ago
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