But I want it NOW
Monday, June 29, 2009
I want to be at my end goal so bad NOW.I know it is about six months away because of how I drop weight.Slooowwwww.I don't want to be so darn fat like I am now.GRRR why did I let myself get this way? I was right here putting all that food in and NOT exercising,so Now I bear the burden of NOT being a good caretaker of my body. On a good note I'm into my third week at the gym and my calves are so shapely and muscular now.My cankles are gone.BUT my hiney still jiggles when I try to run.
So embarrassing.The fact that I have lost inches and not weight is a testament to how much my body loves to hang onto EVERY blessed pound.In total since starting at the gym I have one measly pound I have lost forever.But I have hope fore the next four weeks..Now I want to be able to run that 5K I promised myself.I want it now ,but,I must make those small changes NOW.So that the desire for RIGHT NOW will be fulfilled in the future when I will have a new goal.A new Right now.Today right now I want to be 30+lbs tinier.Right this second I want to be able to jump up and run forever.Right now I want to be able to lift and pump at the gym those same 30+lbs that I wan toff my butt.Right now I want it all.But this desire for right now will soon become my future and I will be able to have it then because I want it now.Desire is the first step and I'm in the middle of fulfilling those desires.Now to push myself harder because I KNOW I CAN.I Will DO IT!