My 3 Questions
Saturday, June 20, 2009
In the SparkTeam "DONE Being the Fat Girl", there is a thread all about the 3 questions. I wanted to write my answers in my blog so that I can refer to them at any time. Here goes...
Why am I overweight?
I think that, like most people, I have become overweight (obese) without realizing it. I was always the biggest of my friends (or so I thought). At 5'1" and 130 lbs (with curves and muscles), I was far from overweight. In high school, I worked out everyday with sports. When sports were done for the year, I spent my time in the pool swimming laps. I still had to be careful with my food though. In college, I lost the "freshman 15". During my sophomore year, I was down to 120lbs complete with curves. I was loving life in my new body. Then I started to party. By the end of my junior year (and 21st birthday), I was up to 165. I was 180 when I got married. I lost 20lbs during the first year of marriage, but was up to almost 195 when we decided to have our first child. So I lost 15lbs, then I got pregnant. I gained 65lbs!!! I lost all of that plus some and was back down to 167 only 1 year ago. But, as always, it was not a lifestyle change and the weight has come back. So, I guess the answer to the question is that I get lazy. I try a brand name diet for a while, have some success, think I can do it on my own, get lazy, and gain it all back.
Why do I want to lose weight?
Why do I NOT want to lose weight! I want to look the way I feel: young, happy, in love with my family, fun loving, and active. It is also very important to me to set a good example for my daughter. I don't want her to think that having to diet is a part of every persons life. I want her to understand eating healthy and that exercise is fun! Things that I struggle with.
Why have I been unable to maintain my weight loss of the past and how will it be different this time?
I have been unable to maintain weight loss because it has not been a lifestyle change. It has been a temporary fix that either takes too much time and effort or becomes too expensive to continue. I get lazy and over confident. This time, it is coming off slowly (very slowly). I hope that means that it will be easier to maintain. I also need to make exercise a habit. I'm not sure how to do that yet, but I will figure it out. I will also end my love affair with food.
It feels really good to write this down. I encourage anyone who might be struggling or has hit a plateau to answer your own questions. I "knew" all this before writing it down, but it makes it real when it is in black and white.