Where Is It Hiding?
Friday, June 19, 2009
My motivation that is. I think I need to admit once and for all that it is NOT under my covers. Every morning the alarm goes off and I snuggle down deeper looking for the motivation to get up and start moving and it's just not there! Why has it run away? I really need it to come home to me!
Last night was another "insomnia" night. I wanted to take something, but I had bloodwork today and didn't want anything "unusual" in my system for it. So I watched the ceiling fan rotate for most of the night instead. You know, it really is boring to watch a ceiling fan, I can't understand why it doesn't just bore me to sleep!
I got up and got my bloodwork done today. I have to say, the new doc is thorough! 12 tests!!! I joked about just taking a pint, and the girl said "close". Ick! Well, I guess I have a partial reason for being so tired now.
Then, because I was starving (fasting bloodwork) I made a really bad decision and stopped at dunkin donuts. Stupid of me since I'm taking girlchild out to lunch again today. (She's helping at work again.) What makes my decision even more stupid is I have my smoothie and bag of breakfast cereal with me. So why did I stop for the muffin? (And no, I didn't get the low fat version.)
Anyway, my goal is to not do a nosedive into my keyboard as I fall asleep at my desk. I really am exhausted. I need to find my motivation and start moving again.
If anyone see's it, please tell it to come home. It's just a little thing at the moment, and shouldn't be wandering around alone. I promise to give it a good home! Really!!! I just miss my motivation so much!