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Still the BIG girl.......

Tuesday, June 16, 2009 that's my big, flat butt in the blue shirt above......59 pounds down, but still the "Big Girl". I feel so my house! Then I step into the outside world and my big ol bubble of shiny new self esteem POPS as soon as I see....well, anyone!

I'm 5'7 and what some would call 'big boned'. I have broad shoulders, big hands and wide feet (for a women). I have wide hips and apparently a rather large noggin according to hubby {LOL, ya had to be there}! So now that we've established that I'm not exactly the daintiest of chicks, let's move on.

I'm actually wearing a solid size 8 pants/jeans and medium shirts fit comfy and sometimes big (depends on the brand, you know how that is). In skirts and dresses, I am wearing a SIZE 6.....did you hear that? A SIZE 6!!!!! Sorry, I get a little excited sometimes ~ I have never in my life been able to wear a size 6! ANYWAY! I weigh less than I did in high school and I feel fabulous. But over the last few weeks during some get-togethers and outings with friends I realized that I am still an Amazon women next to the average person....even men these days! They're all short and scrawny offense to those of you who may be male......short.....and/or scrawny..... emoticon. My husband is 6'1, 210 lbs so I can definitely have a "feelin' small moment" whenever he's around! I've always know that I would never be petite no matter how much weight I lost, but I didn't expect to still feel like a behemoth when I'm hangin' out with the playgroup moms!

I guess I just needed to whine about it for a minute, cuz as I'm typing, I'm realizing how silly I must sound! I really am grateful for how far the Lord has brought me on this journey. And I know God carefully thought out every detail of me inside and out. He made me just who I am for a purpose, and I would NEVER question His reasoning. GOD DON'T MAKE MISTAKES!!! I just hope that my son grows up to be 6'2 and 250 lbs so that, even if nowhere else in the world, I can continue to feel 'small' at home! emoticon
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    Ok,I am so upset with you right now. You're in a size 8 pants, size 6 skirt and a medium top. Forgive me for not seeing the problem. I am in a size 16, that's slowly falling off of me, extra large top, and 16 skirt....oh and I'm 5'3
    I'm trying o get where you are...ok not quite,, I'll be happy at a size 10, and med top.
    By the husband says I have a big head
    Listen, you're fine, you've worked hard, and you have seen the results of your hard labor. Be thankful, because you look good, and you'e an inspiration
    3241 days ago
  • CT1954
    Ok, I don't see the problem. That picture of you in your wedding dress is so fabulous. And please, Joija, a size 6? What are you talking about. I'm glad you came to your senses cause girl I was starting to be afraid for you and how you was talking. I am 5'4'' and have been since I was in the 6th grade, am the oldest daughter in a family of 7 kids and the shortest of the whole lot of us and was and still am the biggest of the lot. So I kinda understand but on the other end of the spectrum. But, let me tell you, at a size 6, you are not the big girl in or our of your home. You are an inspiration & motivation to me.

    emoticon Carlene
    3292 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/18/2009 5:36:02 PM
    im looking at your before and after pictures I do not understand how you can be frustrated with yourself you look great it seems like you have come a long way from where you started, just give it some time your already on your way to a great body I dont know what type of workout your doing but you might want to incorporate some more weight training into your workouts
    3295 days ago
  • MAV1729
    Joshyln your a hoot!!!.....ok I am 5' 9.5......I am shrinking with age....I used to be 5'11 in high school and Im sure that makes me in the short and scrawny catagory......BUT!!!!!...Im glad you todl us about God doesent make mistakes!!! because you were giving me a complex!!!! oh btw!!! if I was at the same park as in ht e would hear......."HEY YOU IN THE BLUE SHIRT!!!!! LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!"(insert wolf whistle here)......You know if we ever get a chance to meet Im gonna bop your bobble head self!!!......Have a great trip my friend!!!
    3295 days ago
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