Because he doesn't make me ME...

Monday, June 15, 2009

I didn't think my ex-husband deserved top spot on the front of my Sparkpage anymore, so I am moving my little story of the last year of my life here to my blog. I know most people who have come to my page have read it, probably like WHAT!?!?! Yes...that is what happened...yes, shocked me too. But I am over it, moved on, got the t-shirt, and am now using it as a dust rag! BUT, it is still MY story. So, I'll move it here where it will stay, and one day be moved down the list of my blogs. And actually, will be moved down as soon as I post this next one! it goes!
In December 2007, while living in El Paso, Texas my children and I had just sent my husband who is in the Army away to be stationed in Saudi Arabia for two whole years. In January 2008 I received divorce papers in the mail. This is when I felt my whole world fall apart. How was I supposed to keep things together for my children, when inside I was slowly dying? I still had to get up everyday and go to work, go to school, and take care of my children, all while dealing with this divorce...all alone. It took a toll on me and already overweight, I put on an additional 30 lbs. on top of the 220 I was already carrying around!

As time went on and I accepted what was to come, I stopped feeling sorry for myself, and my theme song went from Lesson Learned by Alicia Keys to Just Fine by Mary J. Blige. In July, I quit my job, packed up my house, and my children and I moved back home to Killeen, Texas where I grew up. The first few months back were some of the hardest that I had to deal with, and it was a slow process, but I made it through. My divorce was finalized December 2008, I turned 30 on February 19th of this year, and I am learning to love life to the fullest. I'm happier than I have ever been and more motivated than ever. But I knew to be truly happy and to put the past behind me, I had to let go of not only the emotional baggage of the past 10 years, but the physical baggage as well! It was definitely time for a change, time for Tamika to shine!

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    I love the name of this entry! It is so true.

    Don't you just love a good song that you can relate to, especially by strong women??

    Found you via the Killeen sparkteam, btw!
    3231 days ago
    You go girl! Get yo' shine on!! emoticon
    3234 days ago
    Shine, Tamika, Shine!!!!! emoticon
    3234 days ago
    Great uplifting post. As the saying goes, God doesn't give you anymore than you can handle. I tell my self that everyday to help me get through the dark times. You are a strong sister and what happened to you--while devastating, proves that!
    I also struggle daily with what other's think of me but I continue to tell myself that what I think of myself is what matters most....after all I can't run away from myself.
    May God continue to Bless your beautiful family....
    3234 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/15/2009 4:04:48 PM
    I was never married and I don't have kids but I can relate to this blog. I went through something quite similar about a month ago and yeah we get sad, feel lost...but women like us have more to live for, You have your children watching you and right now they should be more proud of you than ever before for taking matters into your own hands and proving your own success! I wish you the best sweetie! Keep up the great work and may God continue to bless you!

    3234 days ago
    Good for you, this is an inspiration to many I am sure. One more woman in this world who is realizing that they are not and cannot be defined by what someone else thinks or feels. Great job girl. You are doing a great justice for your children. emoticon
    3234 days ago
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