A silver lining kind of girl
Thursday, June 11, 2009
I've always been a bit of a silver lining kind of girl. I always try to find the good in any crummy situation. "I am so sick of rain." My answer, "At least we don't have to go out and water the gardens!" Whenever I hear or get not so great news, after I say "I'm sorry to hear that", my answer is then "At least now...". I've always been called bubbly or perky because of it. I know that having a positive out look on life and being an over all optimist is good for my health, and nice for anyone who has to be around me :) , but it can be bad for me too. How? "Man I feel so fat and ugly. Well, at least my husband still finds me sexy." "I have really put on a lot of weight. At least I'm not as big as so&so." That kind of optimism is bad. I'm glad that my husband still finds me sexy, but I hate the way I look. Comparing myself to others is wrong, too. There will always be people that are bigger than me, unfortunatly, but I may be that fat girl comparison for someone else.
I'm really having a hard time making the weight come off this time. I'm drinking all my water everyday. I am staying within my calorie range (with minor exceptions) everyday. The thing that I am struggling with is exercise. It is always what I struggle with. It's not that I don't enjoy doing it. I always feel great after some exercise! It's finding the time and making myself do it. With a 4 year old, my only quiet time is nap time. Perfect time right? This has always been my "me time". Translation: nap on the couch while watching some tv and having a snack. Not the best thing for me, I know. I must make myself exercise!!
I want to be sexy and healthy so badly. I want it for me and my family. There is no mircale pill or food or person who can do it except for me. At least I have SP to help me! :)