Thursday, June 11, 2009
Tomorrow I go to court to face my ex for the last time. Tomorrow I will get my daughter emancipated and never have to deal with this a**hole again unless it's on my terms and I want to. Tomorrow I put a very large chapter of my life, and the stress that went with it, behind me.
While I have known for weeks that this day was coming, I seem to have burried the fact in my subconscious. I took the day off from work tomorrow. (Because after dealing with him I'm treating myself to a hair appt.) And I really don't have to worry about printing anything out or doing much more than showing up tomorrow. Piece of cake.
So why am I stressing? And why was I hiding the real reason for all the stressing from myself? I just really hate dealing with this guy. I have no reason to stress. I don't have anything to fear. Nothing can happen to me. And yet, I go back to being intimidated by him? I just don't get it!
Yes I am strong. No, I will not eat the day away. (This particular stress actually tends to make me not want to eat.) I have nothing to fear. I will make it through today and tomorrow morning and my goal is to not snap the heads off of people around me when they don't deserve it. And by noon tomorrow it'll all be over with.
Deep breath. Don't forget to breathe!