Stupidity… (Not Again)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I said I was not going to do it, and I’m not going to do it, but past habits seem to be arising causing a slight relapse. I am proud of myself I had lost a total of 22 pounds since starting Sparkpeople and a total of 43 pounds from my highest weight 305 lbs. My last weight lost journey took a turn at 269 lbs and I started gaining it back because of a lack of determination and motivation. With Sparkpeople I past that 269 lbs mark and made it to 262 lbs, and when I stepped on the scale this morning now and behold I was up 3 pounds to 265 lbs.
I have an understanding of why this has happen, and this time it’s not the lack of motivation, its just stupid carelessness. I shouldn't’t have ate that Turkey Melt with sweet potato fries (Tuesday and Friday), Chinese food (Saturday), those .39 cent wings, or that pasta salad and chicken salad wrap from a restaurant (Tuesday) know matter how good they were or how convent it might have been. I must have went crazy, yes it was a busy time at work and in my personal life but I should of made better choices, despite the exercise the food along hindered my progress and I am upset with myself because I slowly see the past repeating itself.
I only have myself to blame. With that being said I am the only one that can correct this act of stupidity that I have committed. So back to meal planning, water intake, regular scheduled exercise throughout the day and not just at night, but must of all showing my body that I care about me. RELAPSE no more; I have taken the first step “RECOGNITION” to correct this habit from the past, but now its time to REJUVENATE and RECONCILE past and present mistakes to make this life changing experience a journey worth REWARDING.