Surgery date is almost here...
Monday, June 08, 2009
So, my surgery date is finally here, this week on Thursday (6/11). Seems like it has been forever that I have been waiting for this. I started this journey last October, and for the first three months I just floundered--ate what I wanted, didn't exercise, and gained more weight. It wasn't until the middle of January before I started changing my lifestyle, and gradually over the following 5 months I felt like I really had this new lifestyle down. I lost 45 pounds and felt fantastic.
Then, it happened.
The closer my surgery date got, the more I started to mourn all the tasty foods that I wouldn't be eating anymore. Funny, I hadn't really thought about them at all over the last 5 months, so why they put me into such a tailspin now is beyond me! At first I let go a little bit and indulged in a few items...I tried to fight it, but I thought enjoying just a little bit would help keep me balanced and get it out of my system. But the closer I got to the big day, the stronger the pull was, until I finally stopped tracking my food and let loose completely--pizza, PF Chang's spicy shrimp, cheeseburgers, pasta, cake, cinnamon rolls, ice cream, pop--way too many indulgences in way too short a period of time. Today I am up 6 pounds...that's 6 pounds in 2 weeks...and I deserve it.
But, I think I actually did get it out of my system. Today I am re-focused and eating light and clean. My goal is to get this heavy, bloated yuck out of my system and get "clean" so I'm ready for surgery. I pray that my liver will be okay when the big day comes. I'm focusing on having primarily liquids today and tomorrow, and then all liquids on Wednesday. I am going to start walking again too. (I wish it wasn't so cold here!!)
I think I'm as ready as I'll ever be. I'm looking forward to having some R&R after the procedure.