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Surgery date is almost here...

Monday, June 08, 2009

So, my surgery date is finally here, this week on Thursday (6/11). Seems like it has been forever that I have been waiting for this. I started this journey last October, and for the first three months I just floundered--ate what I wanted, didn't exercise, and gained more weight. It wasn't until the middle of January before I started changing my lifestyle, and gradually over the following 5 months I felt like I really had this new lifestyle down. I lost 45 pounds and felt fantastic.

Then, it happened.

The closer my surgery date got, the more I started to mourn all the tasty foods that I wouldn't be eating anymore. Funny, I hadn't really thought about them at all over the last 5 months, so why they put me into such a tailspin now is beyond me! At first I let go a little bit and indulged in a few items...I tried to fight it, but I thought enjoying just a little bit would help keep me balanced and get it out of my system. But the closer I got to the big day, the stronger the pull was, until I finally stopped tracking my food and let loose completely--pizza, PF Chang's spicy shrimp, cheeseburgers, pasta, cake, cinnamon rolls, ice cream, pop--way too many indulgences in way too short a period of time. Today I am up 6 pounds...that's 6 pounds in 2 weeks...and I deserve it.

But, I think I actually did get it out of my system. Today I am re-focused and eating light and clean. My goal is to get this heavy, bloated yuck out of my system and get "clean" so I'm ready for surgery. I pray that my liver will be okay when the big day comes. I'm focusing on having primarily liquids today and tomorrow, and then all liquids on Wednesday. I am going to start walking again too. (I wish it wasn't so cold here!!)

I think I'm as ready as I'll ever be. I'm looking forward to having some R&R after the procedure.
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  • no profile photo UNIVERSAL552
    CONGRATULATIONS. I WISH YOU THE BEST ON YOUR JOURNEY TOWARDS A NEW CHAPTER IN YOUR LIFE. IT WILL NOT BE EASY BUT STAY FOCUSED AND POSITIVE ALL THE WAY. I TOO WILL SOON HAVE THE SURGERY (06/30/) KNOW YOU ARE NOT ALONE...... HANG IN THERE N GOOD LUCK emoticon
    3324 days ago
  • SDEHNKE
    Good luck with the surgery! Let us know (Doxie Lovers) how you are doing from time to time.

    Suellen

    3328 days ago
  • LASTOPTIONATTY
    That 'last supper' syndrome is common don't beat yourself up. I had several 'last suppers' out of fear that I would never be able to have certain things again. Just do what you said and get back on track! Looking forward your updates! Best wishes with your surgery! emoticon
    3329 days ago
  • CARAMBA09
    So excited for you Grace!
    I did the same type of binging and put on 12 lbs before the big day.
    these next few months will be a huge mental switch for you...be prepared and be strong!
    3330 days ago
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