Not a super fantastical day
Friday, June 05, 2009
I don't know why it isn't. It is beautiful outside. We get paid today. Work is quiet. I'm off for the weekend starting at 1pm. I should be in a great mood!! But I'm not.
I think the first problem is that I still have one week left until AF arrives and I feel "off". I am bloated, broken out and greasy (hair and skin), and very crampy. DH and I are TTC and I always seem to get a little down during the 2ww. Every little thing makes me think that this could be the month.
I think the second problem goes hand in hand with the first, I can't seem to loose any weight. I know what I need to do. I need to be more consistent with tracking. I need to drink all my water every day. I need to exercise!!!! That is the biggest part of this problem. I can't seem to make myself make time for it. I work part time and have a 4 yr old and I have extensive gardens that require a lot of my time and my hubby works late (home around 9 or 10) which leaves most of the household work for me ( but he is wonderful about helping when he can)and my only chance to see and talk to him is to stay up late which makes it very hard to get up early. Not really excuses, just facts. I must figure out a way to work (free) exercise into my daily life. All of my clothes are either too big or too small. But at this rate, none of my maternity clothes are going to fit me!!! (not in a good way)
I think the last part of my problem is that my hubby is not happy with his work. He is a professional chef (and a very good one :)) but the hours are so hard on him. He's been working in food service for 15+ years but now that our daughter is 4 he is finding being away from home most nights to be more than he can handle. The pay isn't great, there is no benefits or retirement, there is no overtime because he is on salary, so that just adds to his frustration. I am the only one he can talk to (and I am so grateful that he does) so that is why it so important for me to stay up and wait for him at night. Then I am tired and overwhelmed and the cycle begins again. I LOVE food and find comfort in it and that is def. one of the big problems.
Now that I just emotionally threw-up all over anyone who just read this...I feel a tiny bit better. I think that during nap time today, I need to turn off the TV and take a couple of minutes to write a "to do" list for the weekend. Figure out where the priorities are and try to work in the fun stuff (including exercise). My in-laws get here a week from Sunday and I really don't want to spend all day and night next Saturday trying to get ready for them and a birthday party! Thanks for listening!