Tuesday, June 02, 2009
I have been thinking about the last year. I started out trying to get my mind around the fact that it will be "do or die" changing my eating habits. I fought with my self for 6 months, not wanting to change any thing. I had a bad case of indigestion that would wake me up with it burning from my stomach to out my mouth and nose at 2 or 3 in the morning. Yet I didn't want to quit what I was doing. I would chug vinegar to stop the burning and as long as I could find something to keep me on the path of destruction, I kept on the path.
I even had visits with the devil that kept me aware of everything around me that I could eat. Sometimes I didn't even like what I ate.....in fact hated it.....I would ask that devils in side me what's wrong with you and why can't you stop this and the devil just said have some more.
One day I said God I can't do this by my self and I need you to take this over and that very day Oprah had Dr Oz and Bob Green on her show and the show was about the healthy you and I took the advice they gave and got back to the spark site that I had sighed up for a year prior and not used it at all. I don't know if I was to lazy to figure it out or what the problem was but I found key things that had been missing on everything I had tried before.
I found what my body wanted. It wanted water and more water. It wanted fresh veg and fruit. It wanted me to give up all sugar, white flour, trans fats, pop, high fat dairy, cheeses, alcohol. It wanted me back walking. It wanted me to keep track of every bite I put in my mouth (which is easy with the nutrition report). I have been to hospitals that don't make it easy or give as much information as this sparks site makes it.
The very best of the last year is I now feel like I have shed 50 years off of how I feel and if I never look in the mirror it is like being young again. I haven't lost much but have learned that you can be addicted to the good stuff if you make it your habit.
I have tried to change the places I hang out and the things I do as not to trigger my bad habits again. Friends are for coffee and not to go eat meals with. When I give my self a treat, it is something like a massage or a trip to some place with out food (and that is something you have to teach your self to do). I don't let people bring in bad foods disused as gifts. My neighbors cash in on this one. You just have to be your own best friend. The old lady has come a long way baby!!!!