Back on the road

Sunday, May 24, 2009

I have been cranky and I have been frustrated at work, and the effects of that have been spilling over into my diet and exercise habits. Work crowds out exercise, leading to frustration, which leads to eating. I think I mentioned that my boss (the good one) keeps a bottomless bowl of peanut M&Ms on his desk. There are days when my frustration is so high I simply can't resist them, especially if meetings run long, and I haven't had time for lunch or a midmorning cup of coffee. I honestly don't know how long this situation will continue.

I had a bad running week too. Last Saturday I had to slow down to a walk several times, and had trouble with motivation. Tuesday I had to cut my run short, and Thursday I missed my run and never made it up. Besides that, I am also one of slowest people in my running group, which is hardly surprising considering that I am one of the older and heavier people in the group. I was beginning to wonder if I could keep going. Then yesterday, I went 2.5 miles, just like that. No stopping, no slowing down, just keeping to my own pace.

Rationally, I know that I have come a long way in the last few months, but emotionally, it sometimes feels like it's taking too long. Then, just when you feel you have started moving consistently in the wrong direction, you surprise yourself by doing more than you thought possible. I was expecting steady, linear progress, but in running, I just haven't found that to be the case.

I also had an unexpectedly good ride on my bike today. It was a bit hot, but on a bike, you always feel a breeze. A friend and I got back on the by-now familiar W&OD trail. We rode it all the way to the western trailhead at Purcellville, Virginia: a 42-mile roundtrip through some lovely countryside, and up and down mountains. That was 12 miles more than our last trip. I took the picture featured in this blog this afternoon. Tomorrow I'll probably be sore, but at least I don't have to go to work.

Thanks for believing in me, and for all your encouragement.
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    I know how you feel when you get frustrated with this weight loss. Sometimes we get on a streak and feel like nothing can stop us. Other times we gain and feel like it is all pointless. I know you can do this. You are doing so well. I am so proud of you for doing your best, (and sometimes that does mean just getting through the day alive) pushing yourself, and getting what you can done. Our goals checklist isn't always completed - but something is to be said about getting to a goal at a time with your principals and mind still in good standing.

    Thanks so much for the goodie and the pep talk on my blog. I am going to figure out this foot thing when the house crisis is over. The spa treatment was a needed goodie!
    4256 days ago
    YOu hit it with the not finding the progress to be linear. I expeireince the same thing at the gym One day I may sail through my workout. The next day I can barely make it, having touble breathing and aching all over. Just when I feel discouraged and wonder what is wrong with me, the next day will be smooth progress again.
    You are one of my inspirations here on SP. Even though at times you may not think things are going well, remember how far you have come and remember we are all here rooting for you. I applaud you for even attempting to run. You can do it. Be proud of yourself!
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    4256 days ago
    I couldn't agree more with your statement about not finding linear progress. That's something I have definitely found out on my weight loss journey. I try to remind myself that though it may not be linear, it's not magic either. I may have stepped on the scale to be disappointed by a 1/2 pound gain when I thought I was doing well, but if I had eaten those other things that I knew I shouldn't or not exercised as much as I did it would have been more. If you keep pushing I know that you will get where you want to be. You may not get the daily results that you want, but in the long run you will get there!
    4257 days ago
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