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thinking while walking

Sunday, May 24, 2009

While I was out for my walk i was thinking, and figured why not type out what i was thinking also.
I have been heavy my whole life, well thats what i have been told, (mom gave me a photo of me as a senior and i look good.) when in school i was call every name you can think of faty faty 2 by 4, thunder thighs. and i would try to lose it was ok for a bit but right back to the bad chosies.
After school i just went about my life and didn't care, i would always hear you are so pretty if you would just lose weight, i even had my dad tell me that he would give me a $1 for every lb i lose, well i did for a bit but always ended up makeing bad choises and not fowlling it.
I got married to a great guy, said that my face is what he saw fisrt, and didn't care what i weight was. I have had to have 3 lower back surgerys, and was told you konw it would be easyer if you just lose a bit (ya right like lots)
when i was pregnent with my boys and din't put on much lb, doc said its ok you were big befor any way and the baby is growing so your ok.
I have tryed lots of differnt things. slimfast, pills and i would lose but gain it all right back.
so i found sparkpeople in 2006 (wow) i was able to lose a bit then right back, i would be on and loging food, and my workouts, but then life would start and right back to normal.

But now I have learned what there is to do and have been doing it. I have learned that i just need to take the tme for me. even if it hurts someone eles because i don't do something for them right then, I have to do for me and worry about that the kids or hubby or who ever needs. till i do what i need to do for me. so i am going to take the time and do it.

well i know thats a lot for a walk but i did take a 60 min one,lol emoticon
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