Life Sucks! Grrrrr!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
So my foot feels a lot better! I was able to go to the gym and did a 25 minut circuit training but my foot started aching a little so I went homw, I'll got for a 20 minute walk later this afternoon. I paid the loan... dumb idiots raised our monthly payment AGAIN! It's now $716.38 per month when it used to be $668.00. At this rate we'll never pay off the loan. About 3/4 of the payment is for interest and escrow and the rest goes towards principal. We have 2 loans... which is crazy when I'm unemployed and the loans I never saw a dime of. My uncles took the loans out and used it for whatever they used it on. The 1st loan payment is $852.92 so the loans is a big chunk of our money. My uncle Lou gets social security and pays for the 1st loan. My uncle Don gets social security and pays the 2nd loan. My unemployment benefits pay for the utility bills which is almost as much as a loan payment! All these bills are piling on and the thing that scares me if what happens when my uncles die? They're getting up there in age. One is 71 and the other is 68... Both have medical problems. When they pass on social security will stop. How on earth will I pay 2 loan payments and utility bills and food and transportation? I can't even find a job right now! I'm terrified and then I'm worried about funerals... how on earth am I going to pay for them when something happens to my uncles. Grrr it's so stressful! All this stress at 21.... I wouldn't be shocked if I died young from too much stress. Everything is always put onto me... in our family the woman is the matriarch of the family and is the glue that holds things together. My uncles grew up with that mentality and truly believe it's the right way and in my opinion screw that! It isn't fair to me. What about MY life and the things I want to do? I want to go to college, get into modelling, have my own house, get married, have kids. Right now it seems like my life is on hold so I can take care of them. Isn't exactly fair but there's far worse people go through on a daily basis.