Four Years Later.......RIP Popz(5/13/2005)

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Four Years Later….

Four years have elapsed but it feels like four days
The tears have relapsed and they flow in more ways
In no ways, never thought the pain would still remain
Forever to linger, but why must it feel the same
Eternally stained, etched in my heart, from which the love came
The beast of sorrow stands strong, I’m unable to tame
How long will it rain, using my loss for selfish gain
Release me from these chains, why am I contained

It’s an uphill battle…. I won’t surrender
The lessons that you taught Popz, created a contender
“Do you remember”, a phrase that makes my heart tender
As it precedes a subject with you as its member
My mind is flexible, yet the heart not so limber
Did I tell you, you’ll have a grand in September
Anticipation builds just to tell her about my father
With the dreams of being half a man as you to my daughter
Never think that you will not be a part in her life
As your eyes are my eyes and you live through your wife
You know Juan is excited, so your morals will still reach her
It is said Ill make a great dad, thanks to my teacher
Now more than ever I want to be just like you
And when I think, I’m even starting to see just like you
In the mirror, I’m starting to be seen just like you
And when agitated they say that I get mean just like you

I’m glad you were there when I walked that stage
You were not a Clemson man, but you turned that page
I could see the pride in your eyes, seeing your boy as a man
Then you gave me 6 months to move as you took my hand
But I did not need them, a testimony to what you gave me
As around the same time I introduced you to a lady
You gave your son full blessings, as I said I Do
Then accepted God’s blessing, less than year after I said I Do
Leaving 10 months later was the plan that HE created
Never forsake it, though sometimes I wish HE delayed it
Yet I never question, nor do I ask for a reason
Continuing to pray and grow with every season

Since your passing, a large void was left to be filled
I only hope for approval, through the morals that you instilled
I know that you were worried; it was not in your plan
When the responsibility shifted, I raised my hand
So sit back in your glory, for the work put in
And I’m thankful for the position, you put me in
I give you my word Popz, your wife will never need
I pray for her wants, and ensure her every need
As I am typing this minute, she sent me a text
For no particular reason, just a cordial check
To see how I was doing, to ask about my week
As she knows on this day, I tend to be a little bleak
I provide peace of mind, and ensure that I am fine
Attempting to absorb her pains, and stand strong in mine
It’s all because of you, the values you have placed
I’m grateful for the memories, the years you have graced
I see you in my mirror, never taking you for granted
Elated by the love in the seed that you planted
Considered in every decision, by my side, my caddy
My daughter will know these morals came from granddaddy
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    ... a wonderful tribute... he will forever live on in you heart and your daughter will get to know him through the man that you are...

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    Comment edited on: 7/28/2010 1:56:11 PM
    I think ANEWLEE sums it up for me. You are an amazing writer. Please feel free to bless us with more of your inspirations, reflections and insights any time.

    With much appreciation - L.

    4382 days ago
    Sorry to hear of your loss...you address something that has been heavy on my heart for years. I understand that death is something that we all have to deal with, but it is not easy.

    But the one thing that I pray for is that if my parents leave here before me that they can rest assured that I am at a point where I can take care of myself.

    It sounds as if your dad was able to leave here at a time where he can be proud of his son and know that he raised a competent and complete MAN that is capable of loving and taking care of himself and his family. I bet your dad smiles down on you often.

    Wishing you and your family the best!
    4390 days ago
    WOW! This is amazing! I hope your little girl knows how lucky she is to have a daddy with such wisdom, such heart. Your wife is one lucky lady, most men keep there emotions and feelings to themselves, which is never a good thing. I am going to print this to reread when I am feeling down, missing my daddy. Thank you so much for your kind words, and for sharing this with me. Good luck to you and your wife with the new addition. May God Bless You Both!
    4404 days ago
    Powerful! Moving! Despite being sorry for your loss, I'm grateful that you have so many wonderful memories that continue to live on. You are a wonderful writer and I'm sure "Popz" appreciates the sentiments from his place in heaven. Your baby girl will be truly blessed from the lessons learned...

    Take care,

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