Monday, May 11, 2009
8? Really...I can hardly believe it.
I accomplished a lot today. That feels really good. I had prayer group with two of my close friends...hopefully we will meet again while I am home between trainings. We had a good cry together and then we went out for dinner. Their hubbies joined us...mine is planting in the fields so I was the fifth wheel...but that really matters not with them. It was a blessing.
My hubby had his first very sad day as the impact hit him. His job position was posted at work, making that very final. The kids were home and now they are back to their lives...making that feel very lonely. The pastor prayed over us at church...a strange feeling after worshiping with them every Sunday for 18 years. So, it hit him hard today. I look forward to him coming home this evening so we can share in this moment together.
It also hit hard when I decided to tell a fellow missionary in Malawi that we were having a hard day...sadness. She thought I should get depression medicine and bring it to Malawi. Well, After much prayer, wise counsel from godly people and even a counselor friend...I don't believe I need medicine for grief...just the Lord and godly friends to talk to. Even in sadness I do not doubt that this move is the will of God. He never said it would be easy...just that we were to do this for Him and His glory...and so we shall.
Breakfast: 1c low fat granola, an orange, coffee
lunch: low cal chicken noodle soup and garlic bread, water
snack: Mounds bar
Dinner: Bowl of Cream of broccoli soup and a side dish of fresh fruit, Caffeine -free Diet Coke
mood right now: sleepy, a little less anxious than earlier...anticipation
Hard day...but a good day