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12days to go

Monday, May 11, 2009

28days ago my mom and a close friend of mine Caroline started a 40days fast from sugar. I can not believe first of all that 28days have gone by and only 12 are left , less than 2weeks at that( I only cheated day 1 and 2). I am sooooooooo excited for it to be over and I am proud that I have managed to stick to it. I know now that once I make a commitment to do something I can do it. So that means I can do whatever i put my mind to right, well sorta.

A few weeks ago i joined the Y and started boot camp. After 7sessions I stopped and i know that this is no good but I have convinced myself that I have too many responsibilities and so i have put it on hold. I guess one of the reasons I gave up is because I was one of the heaviest if not the heaviest one in the class. I am sooooooo behind and inflexible that I always felt like i was the one holding everyone back. The instructor was cool and patient with me but i wish I was doing better if you know what I mean. I am going to go back but i want to go back there when i have something to show for it. I want to be able to do a sit up all the way and to do pushup like they do in the army and not with my knees to the ground. I have to go back but i will do that when i have gained strength and i am able to keep up with the rest of the class.

I don't have a routine, i just bungle through life and I am sick and tired of that. I just want to the best at all that I do but i seem to have settled for whatever. I am in school full time but i seem to always make it by the skin of my teeth its ridiculous and pathetic. I need a buddy to help keep me in check and to make sure I stay on track.

I have developed a daily routine outline for the umpteenth time,

When I wake up......

Quiet time/ bible study and devotional.
Exercise- Walk or Treadmill/ elliptical
Get me and kids ready for the day.

during the day....
School/ study/ homework
Errands etc....

get kids go home cook dinner
interact with kids/ kids bedtime
tidy up
30 more mins of exercise strength training/situps/push ups etc

before bed read at least 30mins

I can already tell i am not committed because I don't have time listed on there. Good thing I am a work in progress. I just need to be more passionate about life and to be more committed.

Happy mothers day to allllllllllll the mommies out there/ you all rock pat yourself on the back for me.

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  • KATTEE817
    As far as commitment goes, girl, you have it! Omitting sugar from one's diet is a big deal. That alone requires much focus & dedication.

    I think most people "bungle" thru life. Maybe you are putting too much on yourself. Try focusing on one lifestyle change at a time and before you know it, it will be become habit.

    Don't beat yourself up about boot camp. We are constantly sizing ourselves up. As far back as elementary school, I remember scoping out the other students on the first day of school to see if I was the fattest. When I look at pics of me now, I don't know where that came from. I was not overweight then. Anyway, look at it as the insecure fat girl in you (all of us who struggle with weight) who doesn't want change. Don't let that negative voice keep you from becoming better.

    Any good instructor would have shown you modifications to the exercises. Don't feel bad about that. Everyone is not on the same fitness level and it has nothing to do with size. Maybe boot camp just isn't for you right now. Take baby steps. Keep going to the Y and find out what routines work best for you. You may prefer working alone instead of taking group classes. As your stamina increases, so will your confidence and then you can throw in a few new things here & there to make sure you don't get bored.

    Hang in there girl. If you need a buddy, I am here for you. We can communicate privately, on our Spark pages, or on the boards at New Year New Me. Whatever works for you.

    Keep me posted.

    4039 days ago
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