Coming to terms...

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

These past few weeks have been hard on me. When I first started dieting with SP, I was in the first week of my semester at school. I knew there were a lot of habits that needed changing- what to do when I'm bored in class? CHECK. Library for hours at a time? CHECK.

What to do when finals sneak up on you so quickly you become overwhelmed and scared and emotional? EAT..... EVERYTHING. (Oh, and don't excercise!)

SO finals are here- 3 down and 1 to go, and I realize that although finals scared me, they shouldn't have scared me into eating as much as I have been. I mean, I have definitely been emotional eating, but... for finals? Ehh... that's like 1 DAY of binging, not 2 weeks.

I feel like I'm burning out. There I said it. I don't want to say it. But it's the same thing all week:

8:00 wake up motivated- breakfast is always healthy.
12:00 healthy lunch (maybe not AS healthy as I have been- but not too bad in calories)
3:00 where's the cookies? ice cream? doritos?
4:00 probably still eating...
6:00 dinner of some sort (some were healthy, some were not)
8:00 popcorn? wine? cake?

I need help. Any suggestions?

(This blog is my attempt to make my actions REAL and not just pass it off as a bad 2 weeks. I am waking up today with good intentions, and today will be a good day.)

Thanks for listening! :)

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    Hey Keri,

    Good to hear from you and so glad you'll be making our June get together. I tend to follow your exact pattern. Perfect breakfast and lunch and THEN I get the afternoon craving for sweets and lose all control.

    I think the reason I do it is because I have a deep seated fear of success. I'm hyper sensitive about criticism...but not like most would expect. Most of my life I've been criticized for being a goodie-two-shoes, naturally thin, good grades, etc., so it's almost like a form a rebellion for me. I'm afraid to be too successful and I hide behind my belly and cigarettes to keep from being too "good".

    I haven't had a cigarette since yesterday morning and truly don't want one (at least not emotionally). I'm working on the physical cravings with nicorette.

    After reading all the posts, I've decided to go for a run around my neighborhood as soon as I finish here.

    Good luck....the first step is recognizing the problem/trend. Check out that book I loaned Char. It really is helpful.

    Miss ya bunches,


    3839 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    How are you doing now Keri?

    HOpe things are looking up and you have learned new coping skills.

    Good thoughts, Nan
    3839 days ago
    The great thing about where you stand. You KNOW you can change it. You've done it before right?

    I don't have as many classes as you and I'm probably not as diligent either but, I noticed this past week muching a little more than normal. Including with that term paper. Ugh. Very stressful indeed.

    Today, we will kick off the new you! You like to read right? Lisa got me into a book called Shrink Yourself (Food and mind) It helps with emotional eating! It's a book you really have to think about and apply it to yourself. Would you like to borrow it? I could bring it to the get together.

    3866 days ago
    I wrote a long comment to your blog, really poured my heart out, and it wouldn't let me post it. It also wouldn't let me Sparkmail it to you. Said I had to remove any profanity or HTML. There wasn't any! So, I copied it and sent it to you in a Facebook message. I hope it helps.
    3866 days ago
    I can definitely relate to the stress of school and finals! Been there, done that. And at UCF too.....

    I think you've made a step in the right direction though by admitting that it is an excuse. (check out my blog for April and all the excuses I made...LOL)

    Just keep on keeping on. This too shall pass and then you can get back on track again.

    You ARE doing great!
    3866 days ago
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