today's THE day
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Your past is not your potential. In any hour you can choose to liberate the future. ~M Ferguson
So last summer/fall I was the fittest I've ever been. I felt good and had a very healthy lifestyle by every measure I can think of. Funny thing is, I don't even really remember what I weighed, per say, just how I felt and how my clothes fit. and it was like being on top of the world.
...and then I cought mono. and my motivation and health began a slow and steady decline. The crazy thing about mono is that, for the most part, the decline was so gradual I barely noticed. It takes about 6 weeks for you to start noticing symptoms, and by then it's too late!! I consider myself lucky that the virus only had ahold of me for a short time. but the after effects are still with me, six months later. I gained back everything and then some! NONE of my clothes fit, I get winded doing small activities, and my immune system is weak!
I knew back in January I needed to start making changes to my lifestyle to start rebuilding my strength. I committed to taking vitamins and drinking fluids and reducing all stress, so that I had the ability to fight the virus. Over the next couple of months I tried to eat better, and fit in moderate exercise. My motivation was seriously lacking and was not very successful.
By March I was feeling much better and began to regain my clarity of mind. looking back, I know I still had a ways to go. By April it was clear to me that I needed to start taking my health more seriously. I was the only one who could bring me back to my glory. I've struggled all month...trying to make better choices with my eating...going for long walks...rejoining my pilates class and making more time for yoga. I have continued to take my vitamins and make an effort to drink enough water.
But the procrastinator in me, is trapped in a rut. I've lost and regained the same 5 pounds a dozen times over the past few months. NOT GOOD FOR ME! I've tried challenging friends to healthy competitions to encourage success. I forgot that my drive comes from within. I forgot how I've been successful before. I forgot how consistency got me there. I forgot that it is up to me to deliver the success I seek.
A couple of days ago, I sat after my meal and argued with myself. Trying to justify the dessert I was planning to eat. Soothing my losing healthy ego with promises of a strong tomorrow. Tomorrow I will start taking this seriously. Tomorrow I will eat perfect. Tomorrow I will go for a walk. Tomorrow will be the beginning of the rest of my life.
...and then I remembered. Tomorrow never comes. Today IS your life. You live in THIS moment. Today NEEDS to be the day you start over. Today is the day you make the right choices. Right now. Just decide that you want to reach your goals, and take the first step. and then another. Do it now. Remind yourself what your goal is every morning when you wake. Be grateful for the opportunity. Thank your lucky stars to be alive and enjoy it!!!