Week 16: I'm Not Sure Where To Go
Monday, April 27, 2009
This week has been so discouraging. I am yo-yo back and forth from 170 to 168 and I just cant keep it steady. It's just wearing down on me. I have yet to make my April goal and am two pounds over my sparkpeople suggested weight and I have yet to pull a number over 2 since my original 5lb loss. I dont know.
But I know that it is my fault. I cant fit gym time in my schedule and the weather has kept me indoors for the most part. Tomorrow, I am going to try my best to get up a half hour early to go running, but I doubt if the weather will allow me to do it. Damn April showers bringing May flowers! I am even struggling to find time to do fitness videos at home. I am just that busy.
I have so much on my plate with graudation in a month and student teaching for the next 3 weeks. Before this placement, I didn't worry about lesson plans and I could eaisly form a lesson of the fly, but now everything is so planned out and I have to research everything I do. My nights have been full of just trying to get everything done in time. And it's not going to get better as I am taking over more and more.
With graduation, I have job interviews (or not getting called for them and being depressed over it) to manage as well as trying to finalize what will happen to me come June. My family has basically sold my room out and I have no where to go. And after being forceably unemployed for the last four months, I have no money to go off on my own. So far, no summer job and I am just stuck. It just makes me want to cry. But I dont even have time for that.
And of course, I am stress eating and avoiding working out. God. This sucks.