Wednesday, April 22, 2009
So I'm in the middle of my competition, and I just increased to 3 hrs a day of exercising. I'm finding out it was too soon. I just got an injury on my foot. Argh. Of all places, this is not the place to get an injury. It even hurts to walk. I'm hoping it's warm enough that I can go swimming, so that's what I'm trying today. Also, it doesn't hurt to bike. I probably should have done that before trying to increase from 30 minutes to 60 minutes of running in one week. Lesson learned. It seems like that's how I always learn lessons of injury, the hard way. Well, at least I'm still motivated by my family to keep trying other things because if it weren't for that competition I might just completely take a break, and then it would be hard to get back in it.
I know it's a sign that I need to be less stressed about this competition. I was stressed out all weekend. Although I must confess it wasn't the competition, but someone in the competition. While being competitive is important, it can get unhealthy for me. Mostly I just want respect, and I shouldn't feel like I have to earn it by being perfect or being the best. After all I have God's support no matter what other people think of me. Trying to be perfect is what gets young (and old) women in trouble. We think that we have this bar that has to be reached, and it's usually set really high. I honestly have no doubt that most of us can reach that bar we set so high, but at what price. The price of our health, of our time, our families? It's not worth it. I spend so much time and energy wasted trying to reach a goal, that in the end doesn't matter. The things I want to do I don't and the things I don't I do. Sound familiar? I'm going to try to focus on reading scriptures instead of being worried what other people are thinking of me because truly I doubt I'm important enough that they think of me as much as I think they think of me.