I cried in the restaurant!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Wow! I had my birthday and thought I was doing okay with the fact I had not reached my goals for the year. My Mom, niece, nephew and I went out for a birthday meal and the restaurant we wanted was closed due to some problem with water. We went to a different national chain - that I had not planned the meal for. I started to review the menu and could find absolutely no choices that were reasonable for the meal. It was embarassing but I suddenly started to cry. I didn't want to think about every choice I make anymore. All of the disappointments, skipped treats, calorie counting and sore muscles just seemed to be too much to handle.
I don't like to admit it but I ordered only dessert (which I don't even usuall y like)I then spent three days debating whether I would ever log back into Spark again. Is this lifechange really worth it? Well after three days the guilt (I have a highly developed guilt complex) convinced me to keep trying. I have fallen off the wagon but at this point I am hanging onto the edge getting dragged along by this Spark site and my friends here. I am going back to step 1 and just putting one foot forward at a time and moving.