I cried in the restaurant!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Wow! I had my birthday and thought I was doing okay with the fact I had not reached my goals for the year. My Mom, niece, nephew and I went out for a birthday meal and the restaurant we wanted was closed due to some problem with water. We went to a different national chain - that I had not planned the meal for. I started to review the menu and could find absolutely no choices that were reasonable for the meal. It was embarassing but I suddenly started to cry. I didn't want to think about every choice I make anymore. All of the disappointments, skipped treats, calorie counting and sore muscles just seemed to be too much to handle.

I don't like to admit it but I ordered only dessert (which I don't even usuall y like)I then spent three days debating whether I would ever log back into Spark again. Is this lifechange really worth it? Well after three days the guilt (I have a highly developed guilt complex) convinced me to keep trying. I have fallen off the wagon but at this point I am hanging onto the edge getting dragged along by this Spark site and my friends here. I am going back to step 1 and just putting one foot forward at a time and moving.
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  • TOGOAL145
    Oh, Please keep going. Your weight loss is such an inspiration. If you can come this far, you can go all the way! If you see there is nothing on the menu that fits in with your program, just have something remotely made healthy, and step up your exercise program the next day to make up for it.

    You can make this work, I know you can because of how much you have already achieved. It is worth it. The comfort of a healthy body, the fun of wearing anything you want to wear, the confidence you will feel around other people, the energy you will have to enjoy new active things in your life... it's all worth it.

    hang in there, it's only a bump in the road.. Joy
    4065 days ago
    Hi, I'm sorry about your experience on your birthday! It should be a happy day. You know, you might want to consider just enjoying your birthday and not putting restrictions on yourself that day or maybe just one meal, like dinner. I have basically three days that I eat whatever I want. One is my birthday and I don't feel guilty at all. I believe one day or one meal once in a while isn't going to kill you. I find that eating really healthy most of the time, when it comes to one of my free days, I can enjoy more decadent things but I get full really fast. So I'm satisfied but not out of control and then I'm back to my healthy stuff the next day. I don't find it difficult and I don't have to feel deprived. Just and has worked for me. Glad you came back. Good for you. Keep up the good work!

    Alex emoticon
    4066 days ago
    Life can only be lived one second at a time. It is difficult not to reach your goals and to sometimes even unconsciously sabotage them, but it's just a part of the process. Keep your heart open to yourself. It's difficult not to, but try not to beat yourself up. Try to be your best friend, not your unforgiving confessor. Also, try to laugh. When things get bad, play some fun music, watch a comedy-- get out of your head.

    Word of the day: SINGLE-MINDED emoticon

    "If you must begin then go all the way, because if you begin and quit, the unfinished business you have left behind begins to haunt you all the time." - Chögyam Trungpa
    4066 days ago
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