Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I started off having a great day, feeling great and then around 3 o'clock I received a phone call. One of my aunts was being taken into surgery. Her colon ruptured. The doctors speculate it was due to polyps, but not 100% sure. This completely changed my mood for the day. I was very upset and emotional. I know what she will go through and the emotional toll it will be. I am thankful that it didn't take her life and I am quite aware that the outcome could have been much worse. But, I never ever wanted any one in my family to endure the pain physically and emotionally that I went through. While my past experience was a little different from hers, in many ways, we will have walked very similar paths in the end. My heart breaks for her. I was fortunate to have someone give me insight of what I would go through following the first operation. I tried to get to the hospital before my aunt's surgery, but I was unable to. I was able to see her for a few minutes in recovery. She is an amazingly strong woman. She has the biggest heart and it took all I had to hold back the tears and hold her hand. I have never in my life felt so helpess. I wanted to take her pain. I know that I can't, but I would if it was possible.
. All I can do it pray and be there for her.