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Thursday, April 09, 2009

ahhh!! my mind just doesnt stop. i dont want to seem crazy or anything.but sometimes i just get to worrying about so any different things.so it becomes this loud screaming in my head! my head isnt right tonight.i havent said that in a long time.i cant sleep,b/c my mind doesnt stop going round and round.my husband just got a new job,bills r piling up..our son is getting sick.my health is getting on my nerves,im lonely.the only thing that is going right....well ok..is my weight loss.i am just so on edge.i dont know what to do to make myself feel better.im just glad im not going to the fridge.i have a doctors appt. tomorrow so maybe it will help.i think my insulin is getting switched to something else.hopefully it will keep me from having to eat right b 4 bed.i try not to.easter is sunday,we have no extra money to get our son anything.im happy hes too young to know any better.not that i would buy him junk.but i wanna get him a new cute outfit. maybe a little basket with a couple cute things.i will definitely do that as soon as i can.i will go for now,just needed to vent a little.goodnight..sleep tight. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    I understand you about the stress and feeling guilty about holidays with very little money.We plan adventures when we dont have alot of cash, like we took him to his favorite park last easterand let him play for most of the day it was quiet and empty so he got to go on the slides without waiting in line we had a small picnic packed up too.We payed very special attention to him, when we got home we had a dinner of scalloped potatoes and ham gave him a bath and read him all his favorite books till he fell asleep in our arms.Trust me your son will appreciate anything you do because he loves you and just wants to be around you.

    I know things can seem overwhelming, but it doesnt help to worry about things you cannot change, I dont know if you are a praying person, but we alone are not meant to bear the burdon of life stresses alone, everynight before I go to bed I talk with god tell him about my day and ask him to please give me strength and give me courage.unfortuantely we are given trials show we can prove our strength and courage.You are doing well to vent and talk with people who care about you.
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    Hope your doctor's appointment goes well. I don't think your son would know if you didn't celebrate on the exact date. He's too young, and probably won't remember when he gets older. You need to relax, read a book, listen to some music, forget your troubles for a little while. We all have to remember that "ME" time is important!

    Take care,
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    with as little as he is.... maybe when you can afford it you can celebrate Easter with him then :) If your camera has a date stamp on it adjust it to Easter's date and when he gets older he will never know LOL
    My husband works/sleeps all weekend so we had the Easter bunny come last night... it was cool because we didnt have to worry about the bunny getting scared away like we did with Santa LOL...the kids woke us up this morning and couldnt believe that the silly bunny got the day wrong...now they have a few extra days to enjoy there stuff before they go back to school...
    Have you tried a hot bath and then reading before bed to help relax your overworked mind ? Believe me all of us mommy's go through it so you are not crazy !!
    How big is your son anyway ?

    Love ya honey!!!
    4448 days ago
    Hang in there. Take care and congrats on the weight loss. emoticon
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