Frustrated and fat.......
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
So this is the deal, I have myself on such a strict diet that when I tell people about what i am doing and the things I cut out and the changes I have made it makes people either say "wow" or say " how are you doing that" . Well my first 2 weeks were great I lost almost 7 lbs and lost inches but I think alot of that had to do with the fact that I quit drinking beer and liquor every day and deep frying food once a day and eating out all the time... I have had NO results at all in the last 2 1/2 weeks not an ounce!!!!!!!!
I am on a very strict calorie restricted diet, log what I eat every single day. drink my 8 glasses if not more a day, exercise 1 1/2 - 2 hours every day except Sunday, I am not drinking any alcohol at all, taking a multivitamin everyday..... the list can go on and on.... NOTHING!!!!!
I am pretty discouraged right now, tired of being fat and just wish I could see that all my hard work and suffering was doing something. The rational side of me says eventually I will see something but the emotional side of me says what I am doing is not working and I am realizing that I am to hard on myself.
I have not had anything to drink except water in over a month except that one night I got drunk out of my mind...( blog entry about it). Help help help!!!! Am I missing something? How long until people start to see results? I don't care if I lose 1 lb a week, i just want something.
I am doing this all by myself, i am cooking regular yummy food for my fiancée and daughter and then eating this damn diet food for myself with the mouth watering aroma of food in the air. (sigh) I am irritated and don't know if what I am doing is the right thing? I think it is, actually I am positive it is and not even 1 ounce? RRRRR!!!!!
What do you think? be honest and give me your opinions please or even suggestions.