I tripped. I fell down. I think I may have gotten right back up.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Yep, that about sums it up. lol.
I'm not really sure what happened, but the past few days have not been in line with the goals I set for myself eating-wise. I overate (by at least 1,500 calories each day) Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. I also DRANK BEER three of those days. Such a silly thing. I'm really working hard at NOT beating myself up over it since I'm known to do that, and instead just trying to think about what I experienced that made that happen. Truly, I got nothing. The only thing I can think is that I took a single meal of over-indulgence and let it carry on through four days! Sometimes, I just don't think there's a better answer than that.
But here's the thing: I'm NOT going to give in to that urge to berate myself. Because I didn't yesterday, and I didn't this morning. And as a result, I was able to just kind of wake up with a new attitude and get right back into eating the way I prefer to eat. AND I'm not feeling depressed and hopeless. I'm feeling positive, glad about all that I accomplished this month, happy with myself and my body for pushing towards new and better things. Inside of the past 35 or so days, I managed to eat healthfully for at least 25 days! THAT is a huge accomplishment. AND, I stopped overeating after FOUR days!!! I did NOT take this as an opportunity to put health and weight loss on hold and keep packing in the food and packing on the pounds. I did NOT trip, fall down, and lay there and make snow angels and get comfy. I tripped. Fell. Thought in my head, "Hmm... I fell. Why? What can I learn from this particular fall?" And then got my butt right back up to keep walking. This feels like victory to me!
So I'm onto the next month. I find thinking of one month at a time is really helpful for me (regardless of how much I end up losing in that month). This month holds a lot of promise--a few social gatherings (opportunities to practice good decision-making in the face of temptaion), warmer, better weather for more time outside, the end of my coursework, and thus a major stress in my life, more fresh fruits and veggies in the store--lots of great stuff on the horizon!