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Monday, March 30, 2009

EXCITED? (who, me?) Maybe.
SURPRISED? (Who, Me??) Yes & No.
AMAZED (WHO, ME???) FRAK, YES!!!! (so long, Battlestar G!)

I am excited that I finally lost those last 2 lbs to hit 80, but I fear getting too cock-a-whoop over this & jeopardizing it ALL. (not logical, I know, but feelings often aren't....)

One part of me is surprised that I've managed to stick with my program this long and make it to this point ... another part of me isn't because 80 comes after 78, doesn't it...? (logical, I know, but pedantic....)

But--I have to admit that I am a little amazed at my perseverance in this quest for better health and weight loss.

I am amazed that this past week while attending a luncheon meeting, I looked at a plate of yummy-smelling brownies and ... wasn't interested. (the fruit salad and provolone was more appealling!) This odd (for chocaholic me) behavior didn't strike me as out of the ordinary until later. I didn't have to talk myself out of it: I JUST WASN'T INTERESTED!!!

I am amazed that my "goal" pants fit me well enough on Saturday that I wore them out o f the house!!! [new goal pants, here I come!]

I am amazed that the woman who looks back at me from the mirror has collar bones, and MUCH smaller saddlebags, and has to take her Berkies to the shoe place to add holes for the straps because they are too big.

I am amazed that I find myself standing to do things that I used to always do sitting--and NOT THINKING ABOUT IT. I move more just for the sheer joy of moving, because feet, knees, & hips no longer "talk" to me. I can climb steps like a normal human, and have re-learned how to step off a curb as anyone who has not had knee problems does every day.

I am amazed that men look at me. They look me in the eye (& a little lower....) and smile! And I have even been flirted with in the past month!!! (I've been a fat widow for more than 11 years--this is a VERY new experience!) [Yes, I like it .... duh...!]

I started trying to lose weight in May 2008, but didn't join SP until July. I find it completely WONDERFUL/MINDBOGGLING/STUPEFY
ING/(pick another superlative adjective of your choice) that in 20 more pounds, I will have lost 100 lbs!!

I know that the SparkPeople site is one of the reasons I am at this AMAZING point in my journey. Without the food diary, the activity tracker, the articles, the weight ticker, the message board, and the other site info this struggle would've been a whole lot harder.

MOST important of all, however, are the caring, supportive PEOPLE (also known as FRIENDS) who have encouraged me when I was down and yelled at me when I was going off the rails. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! emoticon

Being able to whine or crow or cheer at and to people who GET IT has been a blessing. I always try and return the favor, because I know how much it has helped me.

Did I mention that I've lost 80 lbs??? emoticon
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    Good for you!
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    3362 days ago
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    You are awesome!!!!! You are certainly an inspiration to all (me included). I'm so happy for you. You deserve to be proud of yourself. When I think of all the self-discipline and determination you mustered, it's mind-boggling.

    3364 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/8/2009 7:34:24 AM
    Fabulous! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Outstanding!

    I was laughing at your reference to goal pants, I do that too. Only problem is the last two times I bought goal pants, I brought them home, and they already fit! LOL! OK, not really a problem!

    On your reference to staying on track, and continuing your progress, it's a basic law of physics - an object in motion tends to stay in motion (unless acted upon by an outside force) so congratulations on your continued motion and resisting those pesky outside forces!
    3373 days ago
    Great job! And I second the note on the brownies and recognizing when you *don't* want one!
    3373 days ago
    You are AMAZING! That is so wonderful and so awesome; I can't even begin to say. I just realized from reading your blog here that we both joined SP in July 2008. I am going to be here until the middle of May, and I can't wait to see where you'll be at before I leave. Keep it up! emoticon Donna
    3373 days ago
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    How wonderful for you! It's these moments in the journey that keep us going. Thank you for sharing. And keep up the good work! emoticon
    3373 days ago
    Congradulations, SF fan formerly known as TAMPALARK!

    And I'm glad to hear about the brownies - not because brownies are bad, but because we so often end up eating things because we like them in general, not because we want them that moment. Realizing you don't really want a particular food at a particular time is a big deal.

    3373 days ago
    Congratuations! That is a great milestone! I would love to see a picture. You mentioned a ticker. How do I add one to my blogs??

    I have lost 20 and about 5 inches. Only 70 more to go! emoticon
    3373 days ago
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