Friday, March 27, 2009
I see a pattern in myself that I know others must also see. Each time I travel, or go on a vacation when I return I have severe food issues. Food calls me in, overeating to the point of feeling stuffed , looking for one more food that will fill the void. Anything in the cupboard can go in my mouth and I still don't feel satisfied. Do any of you have this happen?
This is what has happened to me in past weight loss journeys too. I can feel so powerful for months, .and get to a healthy weight. Then I cave in and let myself overeat for days, then weeks, then months, when I am not hungry. It usually starts out with something sugary, then I feel like it's a drive for a drug that I cannot stop. I torment myself with thoughts of trying to stop these urges and do not sleep well, waking up with thoughts of "what can I overeat on today"...
Well, this time I have stopped myself after two days of this overwhelming urge. How did I stop myself You ask? I sat down and made a food menu and vowed to stick to eating only what is on the menu. I know I can plan in some treats and stick to it as long as I have it planned and in moderation. Now that I look back I see that I need to plan my food or that addicting habit of binging takes over again. It's OK to plan, I should not feel bad that I have to plan, it's my only way to stay healthy.
So, my life is back to normal. The plan is in writing and what a relief.