Without a diagnosis...
Saturday, March 14, 2009
...I can't see a therapist through my insurance.
I spoke to a licensed professional counselor (Jamie) for an intake assessment because I know my body image & distortion issues (not to mention the crazy binge eating) is something I've been unable to resolve on my own. But since I haven't been diagnosed with anything - depression, anxiety, OCD, bulimia, anorexia were the ones she asked about - I'm blocked access to mental health providers.
During the intake, Jamie made a comment like this: "I'm going to be frank with you, but these are likely issues you're going to have for the rest of your life."
WHAT?! Absolutely not! I won't allow it. I will will will find body acceptance & love. That comment of hers was very reckless if you ask me. I mean c'mon, I'm calling you for HELP, & you're telling me to try Weight Watchers (not that I have anything against it), & that this is something I'm just going to have to deal with forever?! Seriously, what a joke!
Just because my life's not falling apart doesn't mean I'm holding things together. I'm doing the best I can but the self-consciousness & shame I feel are distracting. The good news is, I won't stop trying to get help. I'll make an appointment with my PCP. I'll ask my old dietitian if she can refer me to therapists that deal with this stuff. I'll keep reading books on improving body image & self-esteem. I'll keep going to yoga, keep running, keep lifting, keep bringing awareness to what I eat.
I'll just keep going.