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Without a diagnosis...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

...I can't see a therapist through my insurance.

I spoke to a licensed professional counselor (Jamie) for an intake assessment because I know my body image & distortion issues (not to mention the crazy binge eating) is something I've been unable to resolve on my own. But since I haven't been diagnosed with anything - depression, anxiety, OCD, bulimia, anorexia were the ones she asked about - I'm blocked access to mental health providers.

During the intake, Jamie made a comment like this: "I'm going to be frank with you, but these are likely issues you're going to have for the rest of your life."

WHAT?! Absolutely not! I won't allow it. I will will will find body acceptance & love. That comment of hers was very reckless if you ask me. I mean c'mon, I'm calling you for HELP, & you're telling me to try Weight Watchers (not that I have anything against it), & that this is something I'm just going to have to deal with forever?! Seriously, what a joke!

Just because my life's not falling apart doesn't mean I'm holding things together. I'm doing the best I can but the self-consciousness & shame I feel are distracting. The good news is, I won't stop trying to get help. I'll make an appointment with my PCP. I'll ask my old dietitian if she can refer me to therapists that deal with this stuff. I'll keep reading books on improving body image & self-esteem. I'll keep going to yoga, keep running, keep lifting, keep bringing awareness to what I eat.

I'll just keep going.
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    Yep - that intake person is an idiot. Erase her words from your brain and replace them with positive confessions and affirmations. Find something you like about yourself and say it aloud every day. That's one tool that has helped me. One body affirmation I use is: "I eat right. I look good. I feel good. And I weigh 155 lbs." I've been saying that since I started this journey at 370 lbs and I'm halfway to my goal now. So chin up! You can and WILL get there!
    3779 days ago
    I think I can see both of your points... but I agree, to someone who has problems like you... you don't WANT or NEED to hear someone, especially one you are going to for HELP (that professional councellor), that there is nothing she can do for you or nothing you can do for yourself!?!? WHAT??? Is she for real????
    That lady is a quack!!!

    You will find someone, a therapist or otherwise, that reaches you on a mental level and I know you will finally find that self love/esteem and acceptance that is within you... waiting to be unveiled!

    3779 days ago
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    Hi there, just wanted to say that you are a great example of someone with the insight and the determination to get and use the help you need. Go honey! emoticon
    3779 days ago
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