Gifts in the Muck
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
So since I've been not feeling well lately, I've taken a different approach to my overall health. A piece of this has been so helpful lately--and specifically today. The insight of a good integrative physician and a really good counselor was this: it's really easy to get caught up in the daily discomfort of feeling nauseous all the time. So it's essential then for me to keep in my mind that this is merely a phase of my life--and like all phases, it will eventually pass. Additionally, I need to keep some focus on the times and ways that my body is able to feel good. The few hours that I get during the course of the day that I don't feel ill? Those hours need to count as much in the big picture as the hours in which I'm feeling awful. And perhaps most of all, I want to work towards the ability to feel thankful for this whole experience--even the points that were terrible. Through this, I've learned so much about myself, about my strength, about those issues I've let slide for far too many years, about the many, many reasons I need, chiefly, to focus on better health--and not just weight loss. This has also opened me to so many new experiences and new options, paths I wouldn't have even considered had I not had to confront this. And a lot of those experiences have completely changed the way I'm looking at the world, looking at my life, and looking at my health. In that regard, what a gift!
Physically, it wasn't a stellar day. That is, I did spend a good deal of time feeling nauseous. However, in an emotional sense, today was quite solid. Let me focus and dwell, for a change, on THAT piece of it. :)