Goal 2 Reached
Monday, March 02, 2009
2. Lose 10% BW (42.5lbs)-382.5lbs
Today was the end of Week 8, officially 2 months in and I weighed in at 376.8lbs! Down 9.8lbs from last week! Turns out my sparkfriends were correct....(I love sparkfriends!)....that my body was holding onto water weight the week prior where I only lost 2.2lbs. This makes an even 12lbs in the past 2 weeks, which is so motivational to keep going.
I'm officially down 48.2lbs in just 8 weeks. It may not be the 100lbs in 8 weeks that the Biggest Loser contestant was able to achieve, however its more then I ever dreamt possible for me. I still don't believe I am actually doing this. I have tried and failed so many times, part of me is trying not to get too excited as a small part of me still thinks it will end. This will not end! This is my lifestyle and I am more committed then ever before. It's March, and I am still sticking to my New Year's resolution, and by next new years I will still be sticking to it too!
I have read so many studies and articles saying that if one can lose just 10% of their body weight their overall health increases dramatically. I can say I can now feel those affects. When I look in the mirror I still see a fat person staring back at me...part of me is still in reality that thats not me trapped inside this fat suit. I have avoided looking at myself for so many years I still don't think I am as big as I am now, even after the weight loss thus far. I may not see a difference in my appearance, but I see a HUGE difference in my lifestyle.
When I think back to my old lifestyle, it wasn't even living. It is truly sad to think of it this way, but I was literally living day to day....I was in a struggle with a very unstable body, that could literally have gone at any day. It's hard to think of it this way, but I know if I had continued in that lifestyle I wouldn't have lived to see my 30th birthday. I would literally sleep for 10+ hours a day, watch tv for 3 or 4 hours, then eat an enormous dinner, go to class for 3 hours, eat some more and watch tv for another 4 hours, then eat even more. If I wanted to do laundry one day, that was my daily project, i would spend 2 hours worrying about doing it, then do it, then be so exhausted I would have to rest for the rest of the day. It's disgusting to think that I have not done so many things because of the fears I would have. If friends wanted to go to the movies the first thing I would have to think about in my head was how are we getting there? Could I fit in the car if someone was driving us? I would avoid any get togethers and be completely miserable at any work trainings or outings I was forced to go to. There are so many places I want to go, so many things I want to see, so many things I want to do, and I'm not limiting myself now because of my size. When I graduate teachers college next May (2010) I want to travel for at least a year, teach English somewhere overseas, and just go out and live!
So anyways, I have rambled enough......my next goal is Goal #3-Lost 20% BW (85lbs) -340lbs by May 18/09. That gives me another 11 weeks to lose 36.8 pounds, roughly 3.35lbs/week. This goal should be pretty attainable if I am able to keep pulling big numbers like this for a while. It is at a rate of about 1% BW or less per week which is pretty healthy.
These next 6 weeks (until April 14) are going to be my most trying task yet. I have my last 5 weeks of classes followed by exams-which is equal to stress in a nutshell. If I can stay focued for this next month and a half I know I will weigh less then 300lbs by September.
I have the financial luxury of being able to take this summer off. I have decided for myself this is something I need to do. I have worked so hard (60+hours/week) since I was 14 years old. This is what was a large contributor to putting on this weight. As of April 14, I will be done school until September 7. During these 4 months I will have very, very few responsibilities besides taking care of myself. I will be working very part time (less then 10hrs/week) and taking only 1 online course for 6 weeks in May and June. If I can make it through these next 6 weeks, I am confident I will stick to this. So this is the next task ahead of me. Do what I just did in the last 8 weeks (lose 10% BW) all over again. In 11 weeks I will weigh another 40lbs less, and I will feel even better!