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Pitfalls on the Journey

Sunday, February 22, 2009

If this weight loss journey were easy we would all breeze through it and wouldn't need a support team or SparkBuddies, right? I've had some bumps in the road the last couple of weeks - I'll share some of them. I'll bet someone else can relate.

One of my pitfalls was depression. Every once in a while I get hit with it - no special reason (certainly have nothing specific in my life to be depressed about !), and I'm already on an anti-depressant. Usually I recognize it but that doesn't necessarily make it easier to get through. When I get depressed I just start chowing down on food non-stop - that was the nasty old habit that hit me over the past few weeks. I'm aware of it but can't seem to stop it, and then I kick myself (e.g. "Haven't you learned anything through the last 2 years of weight loss work!?"). One night when I went to bed I just dropped my weakness before the Lord - I told Him that I knew I couldn't overcome the depression by myself and that I was dependant on Him to help me overcome. Over the next couple days after that I began feeling better and I give Him all the credit for lifting me up.

Another pitfall is busyness: full time job, commuting (6th highest mileage in a company of 275 employees), trying to fit in exercise, trying to fit in devotions, Small Group evenings, class every Monday night for 15 weeks (by my own choice of course, and I do love it), cooking when I get home from work, studying, etc, etc. And then finally I just give in to anxiety over it all, and start the cycle of eating again.

I'll close this with some of the blessings I'm thankful for:
My God, who lifts me out of the pit
My husband, who is a wonderful support (there was a time in my marriage when I couldn't say that, and I almost gave up on him - like I was perfect, right???)
My children, in-law children, grandchildren
Having a secure job that I love
Having a good car, that my husband keeps a close eye on to make sure it's reliable for the commute
Being able to take the Perspectives class, and having my eyes opened to the task before us as Christians
My Jesus who loves me more that I can even imagine!
My Spark Sisters, and the free SparkPeople website. I missed the friendship and support, and I also missed being a friend to all of you!

I wish showers of blessings (and a few pounds dropping off this week emoticon) for each of you! Love, Ena
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    I so understand the depression part, it can suck u down and it is so hard to crawl out. I am so happy that you are doing so well, keep up the good work
    4028 days ago
    Dear Ena,
    Just know that when you're not around...you are missed!
    I think if we're honest, we all go through times like you've described but somehow the Lord knows all about it and brings us out again and back to Himself!
    Always remember...He is the Ever Present One!
    Big hugs,
    4061 days ago
    Don't be hard on yourself Ena...You are human!!!! Surprise ! Surprise!!!
    Let's do this together.... The Lord knows all about it..... you can get to goal...... I have far to go...but I can too!!!!
    LOve and prayers~
    4063 days ago
    Ena, Yes I can definitely relate to what you are going through. I too feel there isn't enough time in a day to accomplish everything I need to get done. Then boom I get hit with something else going wrong...strep, kidney infections, kidney failure. But then I thank God I am alive and that He has given me another chance, another day to enjoy my grandchildren and McKenzie, another day to just enjoy life. The good times always outweigh the bumps in the road...the bumps in the road make me realize how much I enjoy the good times.
    Keep up your great work and know that within 24 hours we will be given a new day and can start again. Praise God!!
    Blessings and hugs,
    4064 days ago
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