I think I am the biggest saboteur!! So, here is a letter to myself!!

Friday, February 20, 2009

This as follows, is the challenge, I felt I needed to put it exactly as it appears on our team thread....


None of us are able to travel this journey by ourselves. We need help along the way. But we don't always get that help from everybody. We all have saboteurs in our lives. Identify your biggest saboteur. Write a short letter to this saboteur telling them what you are trying to accomplish and why, how they can help you, and thank them for what they have done for you so far. BLOG it on your SparkPage.

I have given this so much thought, I think I pulled a muscle in my brain!! I can't think of anyone who is my biggest saboteur, other than, ME!!!

I have nothing to thank myself for, other than thanks for being willing to make the much needed efforts, to get to a healthier me.

I am at a difficult time now, and this challenge comes to me as that; a challenge, a BIG one!! I have become aware of what triggers me to eat out of control, sweets, excusing a holiday, or gathering, of a time to indulge, and self medicating. It sure hasn't worked for me in the past, now I am aware of it, and shame on me if I don't do anything with that knowledge!!

What I am trying to accomplish:
1-Get healthier, be able to play with my Granddaughter, (and future Grand kids), feel good about myself, get off of more medications, have the confidence I have lacked, to enjoy my relationship fully with my Husband, let ME come back;..... in public! I loved to dance, dress fun, and embrace life!
2-Lose the rest of the 140 lbs I started out with.
3-Learn portions, calories, self control, motivation.
4-To physically feel good, and get back my love of exercise.
5-Not be the FAT Mom when my Daughter gets married!
6-Get back the feeling of validation that comes with self confidence!!
7-Wear skinny jeans, own the boots I have always wanted, tuck my shirt in, get into that size 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8-Put my resume out to work movies again (doing hair), I have loved my experiences doing that!!
9-Get the book compiled I have wanted to write!
10-To get through my bucket list!

This is a heartfelt letter to, ME! When it comes down to it, I ultimately am the one who has the responsibility to take control of my life. Yes things have happened to cause me to get where I have been, but I can choose to stay there, and roll around in the misery, or get up and step forward, learn from the past, and get to a better place in life! I have the choice to be a victim, or prevail over adversity, and I chose to divide and concur!!

Sincerely, My ex- Saboteur, Jill

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    You are beautiful Jill :)

    3392 days ago
    They say admitting things are half the battle - you have great insights in to how your mind is working. Just work on it one day at a time and you will succeed. You sound very motivated and that is what it takes. I love the picture too.

    3399 days ago
  • JANR4719
    WOW!! Were you in my head when you wrote this? They say hind site is 20/20. Sounds like your hind site is working pretty well. Thanks for being an inspiration.
    3406 days ago
    emoticon letter Jill!! YOU CAN & WILL SUCCEED!! I have faith in you!! I love your picture!!! emoticon Petra
    3407 days ago
    My biggest saboteur is myself also. I like the way you addressed this and wrote the letter. We can do this. We are important enough to care about us. Let's do it together!

    Love your new pictures! Little Riley is an absolute sweetheart!! Give her an extra big hug from me.

    3407 days ago
    Another great letter! You're wonderful and will get it done! Good job! Hugs, Kylie
    3408 days ago
    What a great letter! You have a great attitude, and you are well on your way to those skinny jeans!!!! emoticon emoticon
    3409 days ago
  • VICKI103
    Fantastic letter to yourself. Self realization is a great motivator! You will get to that size 10 and wear those sz 10 jeans with that sexy shirt tucked in! Vicki
    3409 days ago
    YOur pictures are beautful. Your letter heartflet. Now, GET OFF YOUR BUTT AND ADD AT LEAST 30 minutes of activity a day. Drink that water and work hard! I lost 50 pounds in 5 months because I wanted to. YOU CAN DO IT TOO!

    (I will be here to kick you in the butt when you need it, just let me know!) emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3410 days ago
    emoticon This is a wonderful letter. Shows a lot of insight into your being. Read it often and remind yourself often of what you realize, what you want and how you are going to do it. You are a strong lady and you will learn to be stronger and do this for yourself. emoticon

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    3410 days ago
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