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A very blue day?

Friday, February 20, 2009

ok, just waking up was rough today and trust me I have enough reasons to feel the stress today:
1. it is pms time so i am extra tired.
2. my sister's mil and my coworker's moms just passed, so it is very somber and i am awaiting the 3rd one
3. i laid off 19 people today (not a 'love my job' day)
4. i may not have a job next week (see #3)
5. i just started a new class and am already behind
6. i have no money and will probably bounce a check this week
7. my house is trashed (still)
8. I left my kids this morning angry and upset with them, and they knew it.
9. this belly of mine keeps getting in the way and really driving me insane today.
10. I feel negative today.

So with those 10 things in mind I am going force myself to see the positive side of this~!

ok, just waking up was rough today.
1. it is pms time so i am extra tired. SO I CAN ALLOW MYSELF TO TAKE A NAP OR HIT THE HAY A BIT EARLIER, WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY. (i don't know if that counts, but i will take it!)
2. my sister's mil and my coworker's moms just passed, so it is very somber and i am awaiting the 3rd one (NO POSITIVE HERE, BUT HONORING THE CIRCLE OF LIFE?--I KNOW, A STRETCH)
3. i laid off 19 people today (OK, THIS IS GETTING HARDER, I REALLY DON'T HAVE A POSITIVE TO THIS)
4. i may not have a job next week (AT LEAST I HAVE A BACKUP PLAN!!)
5. i just started a new class and am already behind (**EMAIL FROM INSTRUCTOR GAVE EXTENTION. : ) )
6. i have no money and will probably bounce a check this week (MAYBE NOT, IT IS RISK GAME..I JUST NEED TO STOP NEEDLESS SPENDING!)
7. my house is trashed (still) (AT LEAST IT IS FRIDAY AND MAYBE I CAN CATCH UP... AND I HAVE PMS, SO RANDOM WEIRD THINGS WILL GET CLEANED THIS WEEKEND!)
8. I left my kids this morning angry and upset with them, and they knew it. (THEY KNOW I STILL LOVE THEM AND I WILL SEE THEM TOMORROW!)
9. this belly of mine keeps getting in the way and really driving me insane today. (I AM WORKING ON IT, TODAY WAS NOT A GREAT DAY FOOD WISE, BUT I CAN STILL EXERCISE AND TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY!)
10. I feel negative today. (I CHOOSE TO FEEL THAT WAY, I CAN PULL MYSELF OUT OF IT, FIND THE GOOD IN EVERYTHING, AND MOVE ON!)

ok, well, i tried. i hate being at the verge of tears and today just kind of compounded everything for me. i feel like my bp is really high and i feel really worn out. at least the sun is out and there isn't snow on the ground... spring is coming (even if it is only 20 degrees out today!) **SIGH***
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  • BILLALEX70
    Hey Elisha,

    Here's a positive for you. I live in Marion where it's probably about the same temp you mentioned. I'm currently traveling for business to the Northern part of Canada. When we got up and went out this morning it was -40 degrees with wind chill!

    Keep your head up and keep pushing through.
    3435 days ago
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