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A month of 'anniversaries'

Friday, February 20, 2009

This month was always a busy month for me. It's one that most importantly in my life now marks my youngest's birthday - she turns 8 tomorrow and well it is my reality that I don't have babies anymore. It's sad, yet nice. It means that they are becoming more independent. It means that I now have more 'me' time.

I remember as they were younger how my time was consumed playing the role of caregiver. A time, when I used to forget about me and perhaps where I let myself go and gained some weight.

Those times have changed and now as I focus on becoming healthy, I act as a role model for my children who watch as I practice good eating, exercise. I feel great about this.

It's also the month where my dad's birthday was, my ex's birthday, valentine's and next week - Feb 25th was not only my former wedding anniversary date but my parents. I used to look at this month with dread and feel sad but NO MORE. Now I choose to look at it in a more positive light... as I recognize the freedom that my daughters' aging brings, how I can now go out more and do more independently. I look at next week's date as a time to recall fondly my parents who lived 'till death did them part' ... celebrating over 40 years of marriage.

I do not condone marriage. Although it didn't work out for me, I still do believe in love. It just meant that mine was not the ONE. It does not mean there is not ONE for me... just that I haven't come across it in my journey yet.

It's the one part that I miss at times... the closeness of sharing a special bond with a man. I know that when the time is right, this will come into my life again and this time it will be RIGHT because I will not accept anything less.

I am so worth it! And so are my daughters... My mate is out there... we just haven't met yet...
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  • BRENDA_2010
    Way to stay positive Helene!!!

    Happy birthday to your daughter. Children sure grow up fast. The irony though is no matter how old, we always need our parents at one time or another. I'm sure you are thinking about all the great memories of your parents.

    Someday you are going to find your soul mate. I wasn't looking and I found Eric. Right now you need to focus on you and make sure you are happy and then everything else will work out!!!

    Be patient!!!! Stay positive and enjoy your "Me" time!!!! YES - YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!

    3406 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/21/2009 4:56:42 AM
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