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Monday, February 16, 2009

No one is perfect.

Looks like I spent a few days illustrating that principle...

at work and about everywhere.

I spent 3 days making a bunch of mistakes with people and eating quite badly, struggling with guilt I don't deserve, some that I do; hurt that seems to come from nowhere, and the view of up as a pretty steep hill.

So as the cowboys say, I'm getting back on the horse that tossed me (metaphorically) and moving along.

Much is good, but I'm feeling pretty vulnerable these days.

I'm working with my doctor, have arranged for some time off (thank goodness I have a LOT of leave - actually lost some last year), have friends and SP and family and such to help me keep going. Even have an opportunity to move out of a dead end into something really exciting soon... and am learning so much and trying new things... AND...

...And snarflesneegus! This is not one of my finer times.

Thanks to all of you who have been of support. It's hard having two disabilities and keeping going -- mistakes are doubly scary to make, even though I've made 'em in past and worked it out. And I've been thinking a lot about relationship errors at work and in life, and hoping I can finally get it together in some sort of safe way.

Til then, we keep doing one little thing after another to make life the best it can be.

Wish it felt better right now.

It will tomorrow.

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    You are such an incredible writer! I enjoy reading your blogs, as I can truly feel your passion (and pain) behind each word!

    Life is good! and tomorrow...it will be good too!
    3380 days ago
    Everyone makes mistakes and eats badly off and on. The rule of thumb is learn from the mistakes and leave them in the past. Don't let them ruin today. I don't know what your disabilities are, but you sound pretty active chasing horses around at noon.

    I love the picture of your cat watching the deer in your yard. It looks almost as it the deer is looking back at your cat. Great picture.

    Life is good and going to get better.
    3381 days ago
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