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200 was the beginning

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I stepped upon the freight scale 1 day to turn on the light. My eye caught the digital read out. 200, 200 lbs, of hello no that can't be. I can't weigh 200 lbs. I am 5 foot tall.That is as big around as I am tall.
Wait a minute think about this. You have bought larger and bigger and bigger and larger for the last 2 years. It was only 2 years. 2 years since my trip to San Antonio. I was only 150 and bought an all new waredrobe in Large. Yes large I was not happy with that 2 years ago. Then Why, why had I continued to buy 16-18-20, L-XL-XXL and never stopped. Never stopped to be disgusted with myself. Never stopper to take control. Never stopped to want control!!

I began to look at what I ate and to try and eat better. Eating better was not a big problem. I love food all food Good and Bad food. My life is food. Go to sleep and wake up thinking of recipes to try, concoctions to make.
Then why am I so damn big??????? Weight went up, weight came down. 15 lbs came and went for all most a year. I was trying, I was not was going anywhere but 200 and 185 back and forth, back and forth.
I need help. Who do I ask. What do I need. Weight watchers OK lets try it.
Well I joined it. Not hard to follow. Hey I eat to much way to much. I eat like Thanksgiving every day of the week. I just love it food, and want itfood, until I could bust!!!
Well it was working but once a week was not pushing me.
HELLO SP. My support team. My teachers. My inspiration. My motivation.
Thanks to so many for keeping the journey on track many days. Knowing you can see it on the web makes me accountable. Your my rock.
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    Denial is definitely not a friendly companion! Good for you for seeing through it. A new beginning perhaps? I'm so glad you allow yourself the accountability of posting on sparkpeople.
    3682 days ago
    You CAN do it! But this is different from quitting smoking, when you quit smoking you were done with it forever. You can't quit eating. Hang in there, you're doing great so far. Keep on tracking and dancing.
    3683 days ago
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